He wonders which is a better way to die? Dying from old age isn’t an option now, death caused by a terminal illness isn’t either. Accident? Dehydration? Murder? Zhoumi couldn't really choose which was better, but then if 'murder' meant being killed normally - like how a human kills another he thought that would probably be better. Who would've thought he isn't going to die that way...

He wonders why the lead roles would offer themselves so aimlessly in this sort of situation,

all he could feel is… fear. 

How could they feel the way he felt,

everything was only make believe! After the director says ‘Cut!’ they’re done. 

The best meal is a human in love...

However...the worst situation is

having yourself unconsciously

falling

for

them.