JESSICA'S POINT OF VIEW

     I cut Yuri off, 'what the hell are you saying?!' Yuri, 'let me finish Sica.' Should I really want her to finish what she's going to say? Suddenly out of impulse, I started crying. 'If you are going to break up with me, just don't.. Leave and don't ever see me again. I guess that will be easier for me to forget you.' Yuri stood up and looked at me, 'you really think I am going to break up with you? Why did you think I hopped the plane going here in San Francisco? Pabo! You never let me finish all the time huh? I was going to say, I don't love you because saying I love you is way past how I feel for you. I am scared that one day I am going to lose you to him, knowing that he is always beside you. That it is not hard for him to see you if he wants to. I know this has been an old topic and non sense argument. Can you blame me Sica? I hardly have enough time to see you due to our schedules, I can't even join you on your trips. We always have to think about the media if they see us together. We have to be careful for the sake of our respective agencies. I even think that you don't want to hurt him by seeing or talking to me often. So tell me Sica, how can I avoid thinking negatively? I don't want these feelings believe me, but deep inside it is eating my confidence.' Yuri is now sobbing harder. God! I can't believe that these are what she feel all this time. And here I am enjoying the new world offered to me. How I never thought that those smiles I am seeing on tv and photos are sad smiles. A mask that she has been wearing ever since I left Girls Generation and SM Town. I was one of her pillar and I forgot that leaving can make her crumble. Suddenly I felt I was a bad partner 'Yuri ah, sit down. Please..' She did and I continue 'when you knew I was leaving, you knew it is going to be tough between us. I was always honest with you. When you asked me a