I should talk this way

I should walk that way

But was trying, nothing felt like mine

Middle of 2010

“Tiff!” Jessica shouted as she read the news “Look at this businesswoman”

“Wow wow wow, what happens Jessie?”

“I want to be this one” Jessica pointed the magazine “Having my own fashion line and you will be my partner Tiff!”

“Eww, it means you will become my boss? No way!”

“I will be the best boss ever, Tiff. I know my princess aura will make you comfort”

“Alright alright” Tiffany chuckled as she gave up having debate with Jessica “What’s your plan ahead?”

“Taking school of fashion?” Jessica thinking hard “But SNSD’s schedule was busy enough”

“You have to reduce your sleep then” Tiffany ruffle the blonde hair when laughing

Guess I can't stay small

When Inside four walls

Be a pretty thing for you to pass the time

2011

“Congratulations of your comeback, Jessica!” Taecyeon hugs Jessica tightly as they had small dinner with another member of SNSD and 2PM

“Thanks, Oppa” Jessica peck Taecyeon’s cheek which make the other cooed them

“I heard you will take fashion study, Sica?” Khun asked while chewing the steak

“That’s my plan actually, but I still don’t know how to fulfill that”

“Maybe you can take homeschooling Unnie” said Seohyun

“That’s a great idea” Taeyeon clasped her palms

“Did you already told our company about your plan?” Tiffany asked when they already lying on the bed

“Umph, not yet”

“Why?”

“Because I’m afraid if they say no”

“Don’t worry, you always have us, Jessie” Tiffany let out her eye smile

“My family always support me about it but still I’m afraid if comes to our company”

“Talk about our company” Tiffany wake from her previous position “I heard Lee Soman-nim will call you about Taecyeon”

“What?” Jessica wider her eyes “I thought the case already slipped out”

“I don’t know, they took Tae for meeting”

“I will talk to Taeyeon” Jessica crawls down from the bed to another room where the leader was in it.

Coz I'm gonna feel alive

I don't wanna run and hide

And stay stuck, stay stuck in what I've always known

“Taeng?” Jessica knocked the door softly. She finds Taeyeon supported her head with her arms, signing she’s thinking hard over something

“Hey” she answered meekly

“I heard you took by Lee Sooman-nim for meeting, what was about?”

“It’s nothing” she smiled while gesturing her hands to Jessica for moving closer to her. As Jessica crawling into her side, Taeyeon rest her head on Jessica’s shoulder.

“Taeng, what’s wrong?”

“Just let the rest of the night like this” she whispered which make Jessica furrowed her eyebrows. But later, Jessica just obey Taeyeon

“Taeng…”

“I know maybe it’s not the right time. I will tell you later, Sica”

“I trust you”

Coz I know the time is right

It's now me who can decide

If enough is enough

I can't live my life just only for you

End of 2011

“What? Is she insane?!” Jessica yelled at Tiffany as her best friend told her about Taeyeon’s last meeting with their agency “Taeyeon agreed to make me break up with Taecyeon?”

“Jessie Jessie calm down” Tiffany hug her tightly

“Tiff I can’t, I can’t. I love him so much” slowly tears streaming down on her face. Tiffany tighten their hug, doesn’t know what should she say to her best friend.

“You will be okay, I promise”

Today Jessica was asleep on the dorm instead of her house. Tiffany watch her all the night with sad face. Really, she also hates this condition when they have no choice.

She walks into living room to find someone open the door with loud banging. Taeyeon was holding up by Hyoyeon and Sunny, looks like she’s passed out after drunk.

“She’s drunk?” Tiffany asked as she helped them to put Taeyeon on the couch when Yoona also joins them

“She’s very stress nowadays” said Yoona as she gives Tiffany a bowl of warm water

“It’s will be very hard for Taeyeon and Jessica” Sunny sighed “I don’t even think if Taeyeon will tell Jessica for breaking up with ”

“Jessica already know” said Tiffany

“She should know” Yoona added

On the next morning, when Taeyeon awake and walking into living room, Jessica was already there. She gulped her milk as she drifted her eyes into Taeyeon who walk carefully toward her.

“What do you want?” Jessica’s voice cracked which make Taeyeon almost lost in Jessica’s eyes

“You know I want the best for the group’”

“And letting me down alone?” first tears streams from Jessica’s eyes

“Jessica…” Taeyeon c