[4] Misery | Mina & Momo | Angst
Requested by: Mika24
Plot: Not specified, but it's angst. You guys make it hard for me. Well, not really for this one. I like writing angst. Huehuehue.
A/N: Chapter is written in Mina's POV, just saying if your confused or wondering. :)
A/N #2: I don't know if I'm gonna warn you though, this is kind of weird and creepy, I don't know what came to me. I guess I let my feelings stand in the way. I'm sorry.

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The stillness of the air suffocated me as I gazed at the retreating figure in front of me.

Waves of emotion flooded my being as the words she barked at me tore through my sould, the coldness of the tone she used at me added to the shivers my spine felt. And I could never forget how she treated me like I was a useless, invisible human being. The place I stood on will plant the memories that will forever haunt my poor mind. 

The words I used may be harsh, but those words I used came out from a hidden closet that I hid in the deepest depths of my mind, only for me to know. My emotions took over, like alcohol would do to a person, if that person drank too much.

I was locked, locked inside the anxiety that I have created.

And I, was still inside it.

But when I met her, I hoped, and a small part of me wished that she was the key,

the key to the gates of heaven, the key to freedom.

But I was wrong,

She, she was the one who introduced me into erroneous acts, she was the one who corrupted my already corrupted mind.

She, Hirai Momo, was the key,

the key that unlocked the hidden me, the one who vanished my true self, the one who destroyed me, the one who broke my heart, my nonexistent heart.

"You're useless! Why do I even waste my time on you!" 

"What are you doing?!"

"Get away from me!"

"You're hopeless."

My hands gripped the hems of my shirt tightly, controlling my emotions, but only to ignite the anger I've hidden so much. The anger she taught, the anger she made me feel everytime I was with her. I wanted to shout, I wanted to fight, I wanted to fight for myself.

But all I did was stare at her, disguise my true feelings, mask my face with a fake smile, stare at her blankly, 

and out of all the things I've done,

I've hated one thing,

And that thing I've loathed is,

that I loved her.

I loved her to the point that I almost lost my mind, to the point that I wanted to tug her and beg her to be with me, to the point that I almost sacrificed my life just to spend another day with her.

She ruined me,

How pathetic.

I let her ruin me.

"I love you, Myoui Mina."

How foolish I am that I've fallen into the trap you've created, you, you made me feel wanted, and being the stupid, lovestruck fool I was, I did what I was told, and what's worst,

I liked, no, I loved the feeling,

of you touching me, marking me as your own,

me surrendering to your touches, me surrending myself to you.

How stupid I was, that I've let you do these, these things to me.

That I let you manipulate me, that I let you control me, physically and emotionally.

I loved every inch of it,

but the truth was slapped across my face when my eyes fixated itself infront you,

you and your partner,

And what's worse, 

you only smirked, and even mocked me by placing a sweet kiss on her forehead.

I wanted to slap, curse you even, I want to beat you to death,

But something was holding my back,

and that something, was my love for you,

my love for a heartless human being.

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You placed me in a room called 'Misery'. You controlled me, you let Misery ruin my life,

you, you are my misery.

The misery I've always wanted to run away from,

the misery I've always loathed.

"Suit yourself, you're useless anyways."

Tears streamed down my face, the cold air hitting it, drying it in the process. I gulped down, hard, trying to control my tears that I've hidden.
Whatever I do, I can't get your face out of my head, I can't get your pretty and harmless face out infront of me. The middle part of my chest aching,
aching and hoping for you to come back to me, for you to draw your words back.

But you didn't, you only walked away, phone clutched inside your palm, your mouth forming a smile.

And that's when I lost it, I lost my sanity,

you took it away from me, and being the stupid self I was,

I let you take it away from me,

The only thing I have left,

was taken from me. 

"I hate you."

Were the words my mouth uttered, were the only words my brain processed, were the only words I let my brain believe.

But the truth was,

"I love you."

And the only thing I can do, to get out of this misery you placed me in,

is to lifelessly walk towards an exit,

an exit to my miserably life.

and only to be greeted by the depths of hell,

and what's worst,

is that you're there,

waving and smiling at me.

How pathetic.

I am really out of my mind.

Please let me out of this, this! This misery I've been through.

I'm out of my mind, and no one can help me,

but myself.

I smiled bitterly.

I guess this is the end,

the end of my miserable life.

As a take the last step, the last step that my body was going to take. 

The step I was going to take,

that will end my misery.

I closed my eyes and smiled for the last time,

as my body fell, fell through the wind, fell towards the end.

The end of my misery.

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Oh god, What have I done? Momo is my bias but I've made her character her err.. bad as ? Oh my, What is this even? I guess I let myself drown in the feeling of angst. Hehehe.. I'm sorry, please don't hate me :3