Mino: what r u guys doing?

Mino: getting some good rest?

Mino: say

Mino: we're not that special

Mino: actually we're not that special at all 

Mino: did you know?

Mino: it's so sad, u know?

Mino: do you think about it?

Mino: the world is a scary place

Mino: I meet so many good people

Mino: and yet I'm always afraid and carefull and sad

Mino: why are some people so mean?

Mino: why are some of them so stupid?

Mino: it makes them dangerous

Mino: some just do everything for money

Mino: what r they going to do with that

Mino: what is that is in the end that they're doing this?

Mino: how r they like that?

Mino: sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have a child

Mino: I know wonders in life is more than it's harm, but I can't see happiness

Mino: I just get days like these sometimes

Mino: these days, wearing a t-shirt with the wrong logo can get you killed

Mino: intention and context should matter, but they're not heard

Mino: result, reflection, realization, change

Mino: often ignored

Mino: uncared

Mino: mistakes r sins

Mino: and sins r unforgivable

Mino: like that

Mino: the full story is never told

Mino: and we can't know everyone's full story anyway

Mino: to be honest it's none of our business

Mino: and our full story is none of anyone's business

Mino: the most scary thing is we only know what we're told

Mino: what is shown

Mino: what is written

Mino: what is said

Mino: I feel fake and disgusting

Mino: because I have to act

Mino: the word "history" is my cue

Mino: I have to look serious and concerned

Mino: it's awesome to learn. Education is good

Mino: but being told what u r suppose to think and feel is... suffocating

Mino: what is wrong with me? what do you think?

Mino: I'm in my twenties

Mino: I'm a young free man

Mino: but why do I feel like this?

Mino: things I used to enjoy don't excite me anymore

Mino: sometimes I force myself to have fun

Mino: but it doesn't work like that

Mino: aren't well just doing our best to enjoy life?

Mino: then why so much cold judgement?

Mino: who cares who is kissing who

Mino: who cares who is ing who

Mino: honestly, who the cares

Mino: just mind your won business

Mino:

Mino: am I wrong? am I being immature?

Mino: what is so hard?

Mino: what is so hard that you hurt someone else?

Mino: what is so hard that you give orders to shoot someone else?

Mino: I should be an idiot

Mino: idiots r the happiest

Mino: but that is dangerous to people around me

Mino: then what do I do?

Mino: be aware and miserable?

Mino: don't I have any other choice?

Seungyoon: hey

Mino: hey

Seungyoon: did you drink?

Mino: a bit

Mino: but I was feeling like this

Mino: so I opened a bottle

Mino: not even halfway through though

Seungyoon: and ur location?

Mino: home

Seungyoon: I see, that is a relief

Mino: what r u doing?

Seungyoon: nothing

Mino: do you feel like this too?

Seungyoon: yeah

Mino: isn't it hard?

Seungyoon: it is

Mino: what do you do?

Seungyoon: I tried forcing myself

Seungyoon: I looked for funny things online 

Seungyoon: purposefully searched for people who had the same thoughts as me

Seungyoon: it's a tiny bit of relief

Seungyoon: like someone has your back

Seungyoon: like they won't let things go the way you're afraid it would

Mino: that is all?

Seungyoon: this helps

Mino: what?

Seungyoon: this

Seungyoon: you

Seungyoon: talking and just sitting

Seungyoon: then one morning it's gone

Seungyoon: I feel energetic and full of ideas

Seungyoon: when it comes again, it's like meeting someone i don't like

Seungyoon: but at least I know it ends

Mino: but does it have an end?

Seungyoon: it could

Seungyoon: sometimes you distance yourself so far that you don't ever see them again

Mino: sometimes

Seungyoon: yeah

Seungyoon: it , I know

Mino: where did hyungs go?

Mino: why aren't they saying anything

Seungyoon: Mino

Mino: yeah?

Seungyoon: it's ing 6 in the morning

Seungyoon: they r probably sleeping

Mino: ah,

Seungyoon: my thought exactly