Flashback.2

Going to my apartment and dialed tiffany’s number but she’s not picking up her phone, I went inside hoping to see her but no one’s is there, I keep calling her but no luck, I even called her parent to ask if she’s there with her but all they said that they didn’t know where tiffany is and they told me she’s not there also, her parents ask if something happen but I couldn’t answering them and just told them that it was nothing, I went out from our apartment and went out from the building going out to find tiffany, I look from left to right as I decided to go right and run as fast as I could my hands are shaking and I’m so nervous of what tiffany could do, I’m blaming myself over and over again, minutes pass I notice tiffany just meters away from me she’s walking slowly as if she didn’t know where she’s going, I fasten my run and holds her hand, she look at me shock but swung her hand away from my grip she’s glaring at me looking at me like a murderer.. I know I deserve that and I couldn’t help but got hurt by the way she looks at me, I tried calming her down telling her we need to talk that I have to explain everything to her, but she’s refusing to talk to me as I notice she’s cried a lot and my heart winch in pain seeing her cry. Because I promise her that I won’t hurt her that the last thing I wanna do is to make her cry…

I couldn’t help seeing her like that as I hug her so tight and afraid that she will leave me, she’s pushing me away from my hug punching my chest hard trying to break free, but I don’t mind her punch or her , pushing me as I hug her so tight and I couldn’t help but cried, she’s struggling from me as she push me so hard and I release and let go of her as she lap my face again and again, but I didn’t react and let her slap me, after she did that she cried again and seat down  covering her face from her arms, as I look down sadly at her, I went down and rubs her back, she cried harder as I couldn’t see her like this… I hurt her, the one I love, I just hurt her and freaking cheated on her, wow I did it,  I hurt her a lot, I promise myself that I won’t hurt her what now??? .. my tears fell down nonstop as I notice her look at me and speak..

‘h-how c-c-could you?’ her voice crack as I bite my lower lips and look at her sadly…

‘I did anything for you… aaaa hhow ccould you do this to me??? Am I lacking? What did that girl have that I don’t???!!!!

Looking down and didn’t utter a word, I wanted to talk but nothing came out from my mouth, and I know I’m being a jerk right now but all I did but embrace her…

 She pushes me again as I was on the ground and said…

‘you think a hug can forget all of that?!!!!!’

Shaking my head looking at her and said,

‘i-im s-sorry’ my voice crack she looks up and laugh pathetically as she wipes her tears away and stand up while saying…

‘I love you ___ I did anything that I can but you neglected all of that, that’s why you were so distance with me for months, and I thought that it was my fault….’ She stops and looks at me straight to my eyes as I slowly stand up when I heard her say…..

‘I keep asking myself, did I do wrong for her to ignore me? I always said to myself that maybe, maybe you were just tired from work and I didn’t ask because I trusted you…’

She holds cover and wipe her tears again and continue..

‘I waited for you to come home…’ she inhaled deeply as her tears fell down and said…

‘I promise myself to love you even its hurt already, i didn’t listen to my friends that maybe you were che---cheating on me… I didn’t even listen to myself because I trusted you a lot.. a lot more than myself.. because I love you so much and I will love you even its hurt…..’ she looks at me crying as she bite her lips and said….

‘b-but why? Why did you cheat on me?’ she sob infront of me as I look away and couldn’t face her, I gritted my teeth..

‘why can’t you look at me!!?’ she shouted as I look slowly and heard her say….

‘how could you cheated on me ____!!! I didn’t do anything wrong …. Wae? Wae? Wae?!!!!!!.....’

Biting my lips and was about to hold her but she step back shaking her head and looking at me furiously and said.

‘don’t ever come near me again… even I love you I couldn’t take this anymore…… were done….’

I open my mouth to speak shaking my head repeatedly and said…

‘no tiffany please l-let me explain’ i hold her hand and knee in front of her holding her hand close to my face…

‘I’m sorry I didn’t mean to do that, please tiffany, I don’t want to lose you…’I cried so hard as I heard her laugh push me and get her hand away from mine as I look at her still kneeing when she said,

‘the moment you cheated on me that’s time you already lose me’
 

she looks at me mad and her eyes full of hatred she went to closer to me and slap me so hard and run towards the street, I stand up and follow her I saw a car coming towards her, I called tiffany’s attention and shouted at her… I tried stopping her and tried calling her again and again I didn’t stop from running, I run as fast as I could to save her but my feet stop as I saw tiffany got hit by a car, my eyes widen as my knees shakes as I saw her body flew a meters away from the car, I open my mouth as my tears fell down on my cheeks as I tried to walk but it was shaking a lot as I tried again as I run and went to tiffany I sat down I shouted at the people there and ask for their help and hold her body to mine as I hug her tight and I was crying to hard I saw her open her eyes lifting her hand to hold my jaw while saying…..

‘please don’t cry’ she wipe my tears away as I shook my head slowly as she continue to talk…

‘I’m sorry baby I’m sorry I didn’t want to that tiffany I s-swear, im so sorry’…. I cried a lot while holding her and she said…

‘it’s o-okay.. a-a-and i-i-its m-my f-fault yo-you d-did t-that…’ she cough and looks at me.. shaking my head…

‘it’s mine baby, it’s not your fault please don’t blame yourself… I was a jerk doing that to you, I’m sorry’ I cried again,

She looks at me saying sorry that she loves me a lot , I tried stopping her from talking but she hold me closer and kiss my lips telling me….

‘I’m sorry’

‘shhhhhh please don’t leave me, please stop talking,, don’t leave me baby please’ she holds my face while saying…

‘I love you’ she cough and blood came out as I widen my eyes as I called for a help I look down and see her eyes closing as I shook my head and said…

‘no no no noooooooo’ shaking her body…

‘please tiffany open your eyes please’

‘no please!!!! Help us!!!!’ I hug her so tight crying so hard shaking her body again and again, some people went to us and tried helping us the ambulance came at the right time as I hold tiffany’s body securedly. A guy went to my side and told me to step back, I slowly step away and stand up, I told him that I want to help him but he shook h