Sometime even when you still breathing and your heart beat still be your body soulmate there are something more worst than dead,when you are dying slowly but you still alive and fate forced you to face it every single day.somehow i'm really wish i'm the one who face all of those sorrow,how i really wish i'm the one that get all those destiny and fate punishment.so i could end it more quickly and say goodbye for this life without hurt anyone.as long it wasn't him that feel those pain,as long it wasn't him that face this cruel destiny.it just a wish that never come true.what kind of sin that we did? But why he is the one that get the punishment? Why not me? And all those questions haunted me every single night.it just my nightmare is nothing if i could feel his nightmare.

Those pair of eyes that always shining like warm sunshine now just drown them self in sorrow.tears that wet pair of his eyes make me feel guilty more and more.yet he still affraid i know it and he hide all those tears in his sleep.he still worry i will blame my self more and he always wipes away those tears before i walk into his bedroom.i really miss his voice when he calling me,but now even i'm begging on my knees i won't hear his precious voice anymore.the worst punishment that i'm deserve,i never could hear him calling out my name anymore.but no matter what destiny write for us,he still my precious one until my last heart beat.