Morning came, and we were both silent at breakfast. He didn't even look at me once 

When we were in the living room I was playing my video games and he was sewing my shirt for me, I couldn't take the silence anymore 

"Sungmin, I'm sorry about yesterday. I didn't mean to hurt you like that, I just kept my emotions bottled up for to long and they just came out." 

"You just stated what you felt, I'm sorry I let myself get to jealous and selfish. You're right, we are to young to have children. Also I know we might have married to young as well, but even so...nothing that happens between us can change the way I feel about you. I love you as you are and especially as my husband." His eyes finally meet mine with pure genuinity 

I couldn't speak, there was no way I could tell him what I've been thinking

"Aren't you going to say something?" 

"I-I.....I love you too. I'm happy that you're my husband as well. I never should've said what I said." He sits in my lap and kisses me gently 

"You were always terrible at expressing yourself properly, even when we first started dating." He giggles 

"You agreed to marry my dumb ." I kiss him again 

"Maybe we should make up in th bedroom..." He whispers in my neck 

Picking him up we go upstairs and make endless love until he finally passed out from exhaustion 

Putting on my boxers and muscle shirt I look at my book Miss Amaha signed, 

Dear Cho Kyuhyun, 

You've taught me how to inspire others simply by listening to your voice and how much something as simple as doing what you love can impact someone so greatly. I am so grateful and honored that you look up to me and here I will write a secret that only you thought you knew. You were always at my fan meetings and signings, when you asked me questions I knew it was you. I didn't call you out because I know you just wanted to be a regular person in the crowd. Much like me when I go to every one of your concerts, your performances never cease to amaze me. I want to be able to learn from you how you have such a bright outlook on life and live on in true happiness. If you would extend me this honor please, call me anytime. Maybe we can teach each other some things we never knew about. 

Chi Shimizu <3 

Wow, it was so beautiful what she wrote just for me......

Since Sungmin was asleep, I thought a harmless visit to her mansion to talk wasn't a bad idea 

Fixing myself up, I drove there with a tingly sensation in my stomach, like excitement 

When I was about to knock on the door T.O.P opens it 

"Oh hello there Mr. Cho, Shelby is getting ready for bed right now. Might I ask why you didn't call?" 

"Kyuhyun please, and I just wanted to talk to her for a moment. Were you on your way out?" 

"Ah yes, my hyungs and I are having dinner tonight. But I suggest you go home and call if you'd like to see her." 

"It's alright T.O.P, he may come in. On your way back will you pick up my order?" 

"Of course darling, excuse my rude behavior." He bows and leaves the house after letting me in 

She stood there in a long red nightgown with her long brown hair cascading down her shoulders nearly touching the floor

"I had a feeling you'd be visiting me again." She smiles 

"I know this is very rude to show up without a phone call, but I had to come see you again." I confessed 

"Please, I understand. I wanted to see you again myself. Follow me." She starts making her way up the stairs to the other side of the house, opposite of the tea room 

She had such a graceful aura eminating from her, it was really calming and soothing to be around. It was very dreamy 

The maids opened two large doors for her to a room in the hallway 

"You are excused for now ladies, thank you very much." She courtsies politely 

"Please call if you need us Madame." They both bow and walk away quietly 

"Come in." She gestures walking into the large room 

"Wow, is this your bedroom?" It was amazing, a large canopy bed in the center of the room and armoires and flowers and everything anyone could want in a room was there 

"Ah, yes it is. Would you like a berry cupcake? I made them myself this afternoon." She holds a silver tray out to me 

"Of course, thank you.." I bite down into the fluffiest and tender cake I'd ever eaten 

"Do you like it?" She puts a cup of tea in front of me on the table 

"It's delicious, I've never had a cake like this. Where did you learn to bake?" 

"My mother taught me since I was very young, she taught me many things that may seem unimportant to some but to me they mean more than money or fame." She smiles to herself 

"Where is your mother now?" 

"She died around when I just turned 15." 

"Oh I'm so sorry, may I ask what happened?" 

"She killed herself by taking to many prescription pills and by morning she was already gone. Its the short version basically." She sits across from me with her own cup of tea 

"This tea smells like roses...so aromatic..." I enjoyed the steam aroma

"I make my own tea and infuse it with a variety of rose petals, I used to make it for my mother all the time when she was sick. She always told me I should find a way to get it mass produced but to me...it's very sentimental and I think the meaning and heart behind it would be lost if I did that. It's a special memory I share with her and you're the only person I've let have this tea." 

"R-really? Why me?" I sip the tea and savor it's floral and sweet flavor 

"You deserve it, after what you've been through in your life, I believe that those who have a purely good heart can taste the love and sweetness of the tea, and those who have secrets and a cruel heart under a...mask I'll say will only taste bitterness." 

"I believe that.." If I could taste the sweetness...does that mean I have a pure heart? 

"I'm sure you do." She says reassuringly 

"I didn't just come here to make simple conversation. I came here because Sungmin and I have decided not to go through with having a child." 

"I thought so, your husband was jealous wasn't he?" 

"You could tell?" 

"It's always been an issue with me.." A heavy sigh escaped from her lips 

"An issue? What do you mean?" 

"Almost all of my friends who have introduced me to their significant others whether it be a man or woman, their significant others fall in love with me. It always happens even though I never initiate anything or even try to seduce them in any way. It's caused me quite a lot of grief because the friends I've lost because of that believe that I wanted their lovers as well." 

"He was jealous because I was willing to directly inseminate you and he thought we had formed a connection." 

"I believe we did because of our admiration for one another. I saw it immediately but felt guilty because we seemed to forget the other people in the room." She took our empty tea cups to the counter

"I know..when I started talking to you I felt...happy. No, not just happy, ecstatic is the better term." 

"As did I, however you are married. For the sake of no drama and to cause no emotional harm, I believe we should just be friends. All we can do is be friends. I won't allow myself to ruin your marriage and the life of your husband." She yawned 

"Y-you're right, but I would like to see you again." 

"You may come over any time you wish, no need to call or anything of the sort. You're welcome to this place as a second home." She pats my head gently, she was barely as tall as me when I was sitting down 

I put my hand on hers and hold it gently, placing a kiss against her delicate skin

"Thank you, so much. If you wouldn't mind, may I come by again tomorrow?" 

"Hmhm, why of course you can." Her bright smile was a sight to see, all I wanted was to keep seeing her smile

"I'll go now, you seem like you need your rest." Bowing respectfully I kiss her hand once more 

"Thank you, I look forward to seeing you again tomorrow." She hugs me caringly 

Her scent was so sweet, it really felt like I was dreaming just from being around her 

We opened the doors and walked to see the maids waiting at the bottom of the staircase

"Goodnight, Miss Amaha." I smile genuinley 

"Goodnight Kyuhyun." She waves to me as the maids close the doors 

"What a wonderful night.." I mumble to myself looking up at the moon and starry night sky