"How is Sungmin doing?" She asks sitting beside me 

"We haven't spoken yet, I still haven't decided what to do. I could never bring myself to lose you forever.....unless you want me to." 

"Of course not! The truth is......I like you too Kyu." Her cheeks grew so red it looked like she was sunkissed 

"R-Really? You do?" Leeteuk's eyes suddenly had sadness in them 

"Y-Yes.....I've liked you for quite some time now. I didn't tell you because I knew it was wrong and no good could come of it. Even telling you now, I feel so guilty. Sungmin is sweet and deserves wonderful things, especially he deserves you more than I." 

"What makes you think that?" 

"I just cause probems for everyone. Even for you Teukkie." Their eyes meet with mutual sadness 

"What do you mean bunny?"

"When I got sick, I disappeared without telling you right away. Even though I caled you everyday, you always asked me where I was and I never told you. Making you worry so much almost killed me because I knew I was making you suffer being apart for so long. I looked up to you and treasured you as a brother who always looked out for me. I didn't tell you I was leaving because I didn't want to burden you anymore always taking care of me. Iwanted to learn to take care of myself and be strong like you."  Placing her hand on his lap, he places his hand on hers 

"I remmeber the last time you called me, you thought you were never going to get better. I believed so strongly everyday that I would see you happy and healthy again. Today, that wish came true. I am very grateful for that. I think I should take my leave now and let the two of you talk things over." Standing up he puts his coat on 

"You don't have to leave, Leeteukssi." I protest 

"No, it's alright. I have to get back home and finish rehearsing my lines for the new variety show tomorrow."

"I hope we see each other again Teukkie." 

"We will, I promise." Kissing her forehead and shaking my hand he heads out the door 

"I know what you're thinking, Kyu." She giggles 

"Oh?"

"Hmhm, you think I like Teukkie too."

"W-What, no of course not..." I lied 

"Listen,..." She sits beside me, "Teukkie has always been a big brother figure to me, and......I know he loves me as well."

"He loves you?" I gasp 

"When we were children, he awlays told me he would make me his wife one day. Everyday he would tell me he loved me so much, and how he would never love anyone else when he grew up." She sighs 

"Have you never felt that way about him?"

"Unfortunately no, he's just a brother to me. As we grew up I thought his feelings had changed, but I saw the look in his eyes a few moments ago when I confessed my feelings for you. The overwhelming sadness in his eyes......I can't believe his feelings for me haven't changed after all these years."

"I never knew he had kept this secret for so long. He must feel so alone..."

"Why don't we return to my home for now? I'm sure T.O.P is worried about me."

"May I tell you something first?" I hesitated to tell her what happened between him and I 

"Of course, what is it?"

"Before we came here, he got very upset with me..."

"He did? What happened?" She looked closer at me and saw the bruise on my cheek under the coverup 

"Did he do this to you?" my cheek gently her eyes glistened with sadness once more 

"I went looking for you at your house and he thought I had hurt you and that's why you hadn't come home. So he gave me quite the beating and stormed off."

"This isn't acceptable, he's never raised a hand to anyone before. I wonder why he would do such a thing at all especially to you. Come now, I want to see how he's doing and talk to him about this."

On the way there, I did my best not to tell her I was aware of T.O.P's feelings for her in the back of my mind as she sang a beautiful song 

"Now, is the hour when frogs and thrushes praise the world.~ From the woods, and rushes, sleep my love.~ Sleep my only deep, in the dark.....~" The softness of her voice soothed the anxiety in my heart 

"That's a beautiful song, where did you learn that?"

"My mother used to sing it for me every night before I went to sleep. She had the most beautiful voice, before she died I encouraged her to record some of her songs and share them wih the world."

"Did she ever record them?"

"She did, but she died before we could meet with someone to produce them...."

"Maybe I could help, we can show my manager the cd and produce it in honor of your mothers memory."

"You would really do that for me?"

"Of course, she sounds as kind and as loving as you are. She would be so proud that you hold onto the memories you shared with her so dearly." I smile at her compassionately 

Blushing intensely she simplyholds my hand with teary eyes 

This will be the least I can do for her after all I've made her suffer through.....