"Do you think we will find a proper surrogate honey?" Sungmin asks me searching through the website 

"Of course, there has to be one that's perfect for us." I hover over him with my arms around his neck 

"Oh, what about this one?" He points to the picture on the screen 

"Shelby Amaha, 20, artist, a manga artist to be exact...straight A student when she was in college... Wow she graduated college at 18. She seems perfect." I smile 

"I was more enticed by her face, she's so adorable!" He giggles 

"You're right, she looks just like one of those porcelain dolls you see in museums. Like really high class museums..." I was stunned by her beauty, it's like her eyes were glass. They shined so brightly and this was just a photo, I wondered what it would be like in person 

"I think she would be perfect for us, although I'm extremely surprised someone like her would become a surrogate." He says yawning 

"That's strange that her contact information isn't loading, and I've tried reloading the page several times." The keyboard clicked repeatedly to refresh the page once more

"Well, we should call the facility in the morning and ask for her phone number. They should have it in their records if she is listed on the website." I say reassuringly 

"You're right, I'm just anxious because I'm so excited that we are going to have a baby." He hugs me 

"You'll be a great mother figure for the baby, I'm sure since you are the wife in this marriage." Laughter fills me up 

"Well, it's late now. We should get some sleep and we can call in the morning." I finally stop laughing 

"Carry me...I'm to sleepy..." His eyes couldn't stay open any longer as he slumped on my shoulder 

Lifting him onto my back I carry him upstairs to our bedroom and put him under the covers 

Going back lack downstairs I reopen my laptop and look at her profile again, her information still wasn't loading

"This is so strange..." Looking at her picture again I felt something, she really looked like a doll that came to life from a painting or something  

Giving up on loading her number, I go back upstairs and crawl into bed next to Sungmin 

I loved this boy, but at the same time I felt as though our relationship was lacking fireworks. It's become such a plain way of life 

Deep down I knew that I settled down to young, I could never resist giving Sungmin what he wanted. And he's wanted a child since we got married 6 months ago

My parents were angry with me when we got engaged, I'm only 24 and I hate it that they were right that I decided to marry to young 

Im thinking this child could bring some life back into this relationship, but at the same time it might bring me further apart from Sungmin

I feel bad that he adores me so and I'm only in this half heartedly now, I loved him as much as he loved me once but that was back in high school

I guess the real reason I married him is because it's all I've come to know and in the back of my mind I thought it's all I ever would know 

I hope something will come into light that makes life worth living again