You reach your hand forward, letting it get soaked. The edge of your red coat turns darker, drinking the rainwater. Darker, like my heart. You can’t help the grim giggle that escapes your lips at your sarcastic thought. You always despised people who indulge in self-pity over a simple relationship. You aren’t usually like that. Still, maybe you should give yourself a pass. Allow yourself to feel the gloomy weather in your bones, let it engulf you. Just for a day, acknowledge that you aren’t a

“Oh heck yeah I can relate (giggle). I like doing things by myself and enjoy my lonely time as well, but sometimes it hurts. And its not like I’m always feeling lonely, but when it does hit me it hits me really hard and I can’t escape from it. I just have to abide to the loneliness that overtakes my body until it leaves my body, which can be the next hour, day or week. I have a hard time reviving myself from depression and loneliness. Once I’m in, I’m in too deep. (Silence) Sorr