i zipped my bag and sling it over my shoulder. i put on the snapback i got from him and ran downstairs. whats the point of living when all i want is death? I let out a very long sigh and exited from my house. the cold winter wind blew my hair and my hands. i shivered. is this what i want? i bit my lips and shook off my thoughts. this is what i want. i've been longing to do this all my life.

i began running down the streets as i felt the warm tears flow down my eyes. why am i crying? i dont need to cry anymore. i'll be fine. will i ever be fine? it would be nice if we can see our future. but then it wouldnt be fun. life wouldnt be fun if you know what you're going to face in the future. right? or am i just talking trash?

as i continued walking, i could see the neighbourhood. the familiar neighbourhood that was once my second home. that was once my escape road and m playground. everything inside this neighbourhood is my happiness. was.

i may asked to much but it would be nice to be love again. to be socialize with other peple withot thinking that they hate you. that they think that you're a moster. a monster because you only have one eye. world can be such a cruel world to people like me. if that person has some disabilities, they'll judge. if that person wearing dark clothes; they'll judge. why judge when you're not even bother to know their background? if you want to judge, judge yourself you piece of .

my phone began to vibrate violently in my pocket but i ignore it. why didnt i turn it off? its so annoying.

after walking for few mintues, i arrived at this one park inside the neighbourhood. i used to roll around here with my dress and giggling every now and then with my friends, family and... him. i small smile was drawn on my face as i remember the blurry memory i had in my head.

"Iris?"

a voice called me. i closed my eyes and laughed quietly. true they said; memory can be so vivid sometimes.

but then, a pair of strong arms wrapped around me and i could hear soft sobs. "i miss you,"

"i mss you,"

note:

hey,  thanks for reading. im currently working on my new fanfics. the idea is somehow like this and you can say this is like a teaser(?) haha. if you like it, be y guest to anticipate :) it would be nice if you guys comments and spit out ur thoughts cause this fanfic is inspired by own life. and my first time doing so.

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