I don't know why, but I've been feeling really agitated these couple of days and I'm constantly frustrated and pissed at people, especially my parents. I'm mean, maybe it's because of the exams and all the nerves and stuff, but I'm just finding it so hard to communicate with them. Like today my PSAT scores came out and it wasn't as good as they expected, so they kept on getting me to listen to them talking to each other about it. I mean, obviously I care about my academics and stuff and I genuinely want to improve, but the way they were talking about it just made me want to stop listening all together. Right now I just want to shut myself away and not talk to anybody, at least for a while. Hopefully when the exam week pass I'll get better. 

Besides this though, something happened yesterday pissed me off so bad I wanted to throw a tantrum. So I was coordinating this dance performance for today's Super Funky with a friend of mine and this really popular girl in my dance studio, and we planned to meet at 4:00pm at the studio after my friend and I finished our stage at yesterday'so Super Funky. The thing was we ended at like 3:00pm and so we thought we could go to the studio early and study or something since she had exams too. So on the way there I texted that girl saying, oh we're going to the studio early, so you can come at about now. And then we stayed there and hung out until around 4:15pm and that girl still didn't come. We weren't really surprised, since she has a bad habit of arriving late, which drives be off every single time. So then we texted her and called her but she didn't reply.

Then we waited more and started rehearsing by outselves until 5:00pm when my friend had to go home. I texted her again and I was like, okay if you don't come in ten minutes we're going to leave and you can't come to the performance tomorrow. This time she did reply, but guess what she said? She was like, oh I thought you guys are going to stay longer, so I was going to come later. 

For a second I just wanted to scream at her through the phone and be like, didn't we agree to meet at 4:00pm?! It literally has nothing to do with how long we're going to stay at the studio! Like I couldn't even begin to try and understand what the hell she was thinking because it made zero sense! and the thing was I couldn't even get mad at her because my teacher adores her and wants us to work with her more since she's really popular on social media and would bring more views to our videos and . But I don't give two s about it and I don't even want to talk to her anymore! In the end we couldn't perform today because the two-person version of the dance didn't look good and I didn't want to present it, especially not in front of so many professional dancers. 

Did I also mention that one time I had to plan a rehearsal with that girl at her own studio and she made me wait for her outside on the streets for three hours? THREE ING HOURS!! Tardiness is like one of my biggest pet peeves and she has stepped over the line way too may times. Seriously the next time my teacher asks me to coordinate another thing with her I'm just going to be like, not in a hundred ing years unless she get her mind and attitude fixed for good!

Ugh I just don't even know anything anymore. One of the only good news these days is that I'm choreographing a piece to BTS' "Look Here" and I think it's coming out pretty good and that I can't wait to finish it.