Things I want to get off of my chest and mind #1: After the accident with Jessica, I kept seeing and reading posts like 'Jessica comeback please' and I wished for the same thing too but after some time I kinda reached in one conclusion. Jessica doesn't have to comeback just in order for them to be nine because in the first place, Jessica never left. She just did something she wanted and the other girls still moved forward because they knew, without looking back, that Jessica will come back to them and that they will return to her. SM or without SM, Jessica will always be part of Girls' Generation because there are some things in this world that doesn't need everyone's recognition in order to exist. Some times it just need a few from true people and it will exist forever. No matter what everyone says, even if everyone thinks the otherwise, even if everyone looks at me like some dillusional lunatic, there's a part in me that believes it's true. The reason why is them personally. This is life after all. Weird things happens and sometimes even painful but at the end of the day, there's still this beautiful sunset that manages to lights up everything even if it goes dark after the next second and just so it happens, this is just like that.

Things I want to get off of my chest and mind #2: I think people this days misinterpreted the term 'fan'. Let's see...according to google, Fan is defined as a person who has a strong interest in or admiration for a particular person or thing. So there's the word 'particular' in that definition but there's also 'strong interest' and 'admiration' in that where I think is where the problem, or rather my confusion, starts. This days, there has been what people call 'multi-fandom' or being a fan of many idols at the same time. I only have one question, Do people from this fandom really idolize them because of who they are or they are strongly interest and admires them just because they were crowned 'king' or 'queen' or is dead beautiful and handsome? I don't mean to offend people, I respect them , really I do, but I'm just confused that's all. I kinda want to talk with this kind of people and see what they think about it.

Things I want to get off of my chest and mind #3: My younger sister, we're three in total and all girls and she's the middle child, has been taking interest in Girls' Generation especially at Sunny until she took interest in Jessica too. She kept noticing how cold she always look and often get irritated because of how uncaring she looks like on the shows I watch which I always correct her about. I often tell her how wrong she is and showed videos of our Ice Princess being the Warm Princess that she is or when she sometimes transition to Sooyeon Jung. It made my sister even more interested in her because she found a new side to Jessica and maybe that took her surprise. We would often watch videos about them like their variety shows and would often laugh out loud. Then the case about Jessica came. She often saw me being locked up in my room or have red, puffy eyes but she doesn't ask me, she worries though. The point is, through those days I wanted to tell her about what happened and how Jessica is not part of Girls' Generation anymore but then whenever I muster the courage to do so, something holds me back. Like something inside me is making me bite my tongue and not just tell her. Maybe because I was scared or maybe it was me being a big sister. As the oldest, I don't like dissapointing them and especially her because I'm close to her. Time went by until the matter passed and reached that very conclusion. I now know why I couldn't bring myself to tell her about it. It's because I'd be lying to her because the truth is, Jessica never left. 

So that's pretty much it and congrats who managed to make it through here. Bye guys goodnight ^^