It hurts when someone talks behind your back, especially when it's about something that you don't have control over, and you've treated that person as your close friend. I've left my old ones because I didn't like their attitude and I've liked hers. I've stayed by her side when they were accusing her of stealing because I knew she would never do that. I didn't mind that they were talking about me as long as she talks to me. But then I saw her do it, talking about me in social media. It hurts to the point that I don't feel anything.

I have bipolar disorder and apathy, there I said it. I got another depressive episode earlier morning plus I was irritated for no apparent reason. She was harmlessly asking me about something she knew I didn't know and she could also use the internet to answer it. I got angry, she got angry, we both got angry. I would have understand that she would be mad but I don't understand why she would write something like that.

I told her I had bipolar disorder because I knew I could trust her, that she would understand. I guess not. She's the same as others.

She posted online about her mood being wrecked because of someone having bipolar disorder. I checked the time, it was before I fell asleep and before our professor entered the room so she was talking about me. I know this isn't really something to get upset about since posting online is considered normal but I just didn't like that she did that instead of sayng it to me. I would have toned it down or maybe watch myself and keep it all in.

I just really thought she was someone different you know.

I thought wrong.

I guess this is why I have apathy. It's pretty easy to say you're happy, worried and hurt even if you feel nothing inside.

Yeah, sorry for something moody this late at night or whatver time you're in. Thanks for reading up to this point by the way. You must have a lot of time in your hands! About my stories, if any of my readers are here I apologize for not sticking to the schedule, I got a little busy back there. As a reward I'm giving you guys double updates in each stories, yay! ^^ So goodnight...I guess?