Hello everyone :)

I know, you're all wondering what happened to me, right. Haha, don't worry, I'm fine.

So first, here's my utmost sincere apology. 

I know it's pretty mean for me to just vanish into a smoke of thin air without leaving a message for all my readers, new and old. I've been in and out of aff, not doing anything, staring at the red globe icon with guilt. I know I'm still getting subscribers even though I haven't updated in months, and I'm pretty sure some have unsubscribed too. I'm fine with that, it's something an irresponsible author like me should get. 

The reason for my absence? Well, there is school. I know that's a pretty weak excuse, because last semester I was writing and studying at the same time. And my grades suffered because of it, so... I'm scared because I'm not someone who balances her time very well. 

There is also... I hate to say this, but there are competing interests as well. I shall not name them, but rest assured I still love and support exo to bits, just maybe not as crazily and intensely as before. I took a break from exo for about a month to prepare for various school activities, and when I returned, I just couldn't get back into the fic-writing mood. I tried afew times, writing afew paragraphs here and there, editing, scrapping... I just couldn't find the same wavelength that I left off.

I admit, and deeply apologize, that I pulled out of chenpionships because of it too. I really hate myself for doing so, but I can't bear to submit sub-par work. So sorry to the moderators about that :( 

So here is the extremely delayed announcement: I don't have any promises when I will return. I will return, that I'm very sure, but when... In a month, two months, three months... I really don't know. I want this hiatus to be a proper one for me to clear my thoughts and set my mind to the right path. I want to be really sure of myself before I pick off from where I stopped. 

Okay so anyway enough of all that.

Today is my ultimate exo bias, CHENCHEN's, birthday!!!

Happy birthday Chenchen!! I love you so so so much, I'll never forget the day I knew you were the one- it was the Star interview, with Chanyeol as MC. I remember thinking, this fedora guy is so adorable asdfghjkl and that's how everything started. When I first started to stan Chen, I used to ask myself, why Chen? I would stare at his (impossibly beautiful) face and think, why Chen? 

But now I know the answer. I love how perfectly imperfect he is, his occasional wardrobe malfunctions, his spoilsport attitude, his ever-competitive drive, his know-it-all expression when he wins, his clumsiness, and there are all his little quirks like his beagleness (obnoxious laughter, random fist-shaking dancing, touchiness with everyone), and his gorgeous heart-melting voice, intense breath-taking high notes, and that stunning eye smile... 

Before I get too carried away, I shall you direct you here to experience the full Chen experience.

Enjoy!! ;)

And Happy Birthday Chen! 

( Perfect example of how much of a kitten he is ^^)