So, hi.

For those of you that are subscribers to my stories, I have a few things I'd like to say. This applies to anyone really, even to people who just talk to me occasionally.

As the year winds down to the last few hours, I came to the decision of what I wanted 2012 to be for me. I'll be honest, this year wasn't the best. I've been struggling the past few months adjusting to my new family situation, schoolwork, and amateur-writing career. Not to mention handling emotional, physical, and mental stress as well as contemplation of suicide.

As someone who is 13, turning 14 in a few weeks, this is a lot for me to handle. And frankly, writing it out in this kind of style makes me feel like I'm oblivious to other people's pain and suffering. I apologize for that.

I have only a few weeks left of winter break before I go back to school without a full break until March, I think, so as of now, I'm trying to schedule and plan everything out so I can maintain good grades, occasional story updates, and a healthy well-being. *sips 20 ounce cup of water

There are no guarantees I will be able to update any time soon, but I assure you I WILL be doing something productive. I'm trying to get my life back on track because I've noticed I haven't been the same person lately. I've been an irrational, stressed out, emotional to people I see daily and I hate it. I have no idea what I did that let this go on for so long, but I commend my friends for being semi-patient with me.

I realize since the only stories I am writing currently are apply fics, there is probably going to be a lot of frustration towards me. People apply to have their ideal character be paired with their love interest with drama, angst, and humor in their story. I sincerely apologize for the inconvenience to you and everyone else, but if you have a problem with that, message me.

I'm also going to be starting two new story projects that aren't apply fics. One will be based off of my breakup last May and the other set in a club/underground scene. Nothing is set in stone besides my schedule.

Why am I adding on to my list of things to do when I already have a lot of on my plate? Writing keeps my mind occupied. Reading keeps my mind occupied. Mind occupied=no bad thought processes=healthy well-being.

I'm doing this to make things better and easier for me. I need to. This is a place in life where the way things go can begin or end my future. A future where I am alive. Please, please understand what I'm trying to do for myself as someone who can see how downhill I'm going.

I tell you all these things because you are a wonderful person deep down that I want to remind somewhat unnecessarily that things will only get better if you make them so.

I wish you all well and a lovely New Year.

With love, hope, and faith,

Jeane, the reality behind SorrySoSorry.