There’re so many things that happened these past few weeks I mean, really, seriously. My mind’s been so busy functioning and what not. It’s screaming for one word: REST. How can you even juggle your fandoms, school, family, problems and personal stuffs? I don’t know, man, but to those who can, I salute you guys.

I’d like to start with rant on my life as of now.

Well, I’ve been busy. It’s been weeks and I have no enough rest and my body’s aching. I’m very weak, I really hate it haha I just hope I won’t faint again just like the other day. I’m not even stressing myself but somehow stress decided to creep up and stay. Well, stress, you are definitely not welcome in my life! Haha. I’m also tired of problems *cringes to the word* problems. From family to school and fandoms, I can’t get away from problems. But, just like what the lecturer told us yesterday during our retreat, problems are part of life. We can’t escape it. But it’s also a way for us to challenge ourselves and learn more about who we really are. Actually, I have learned a lot in our retreat. I’m very thankful I get to be part of my section and, also, thankful that I’m living a normal life when other people have bigger problems than I do. I have big and upsetting problems but when you look at it, their family problems are much more of the definition of problems. Broken families. I have a lot of classmates that have broken families and I feel sad about that yet blessed because my family isn’t broken.  I’d like everyone to think about how important each and every one of us in the lives of the people we know and care about.  No matter how long we’ll stay part of them, it’s still important. You’d never know how much of a help you are to them.

Next is about my friends.

I admit that I was never really good to them and I always keep my true feelings from them. It’s not like I’m being ‘plastic’ to them but I’m being shy to them. I don’t want them to think about me and my problems but think of me as their friend who always say corny jokes and tries her best to make them smile. I’d like that. I’m trying my best to make them feel how important they are to me but every time I tried to do so, it seems like I fail. Even in just writing a simple letter to them, I fail. Well, that’s what I feel at least. But I always think about my friends and what they think about me. Sometimes, I imagine them having fun without me. It’s like they’ll be better without me. (Is this turning into angst!?) But then again, I thought that if they didn’t want me, they should’ve stayed away from me long ago we became close. I’m very thankful to everyone that I’ve met.

Oh, and recently, I’m very bothered about my fandoms haha.

On EXO: what the heck is happening? EXO-L? really? I kept on laughing when they finally announced the EXO-L fandom name. I like how creative it is (EXO-K, EXO-L, EXO-M; L is in the middle of K and M) but I really thought Galaxy was our fandom name. I’d like that better but I’m contented with L. One time I opened twitter and saw some followers with “L” as their display name and I was like, “Are they all Myungsoo (L from infinite) biased?” but then saw Chanyeol’s Instagram updated. “Oh.” Haha. Another thing is the EXO-L website. I tried for, like, a hundred times and I still can’t join. It keeps sending me to the error page. SOMEONE HELP ME PLS :(

On WINNER: is getting real, guys. They launched yesterday and they’ll debut on the 12th. They’ll release THREE, I repeat, THREE MUSIC VIDEOS! The title tracks are Color Ring, Empty and a music video for Mino’s solo It’s Him! I’M SO EXCITED I CAN’T HIDE MY FEELS. And guess what? Their limited editions are already sold out two or three times?! I can’t even pre-order the Launching Edition haha. There were some fans that REALLY bothered me so much. I know they’re oh-so-dedicated to WINNER but I think they’re being too much. Yes, all of us, fans, want the albums but why cry/beg about it? They’ll do anything to get the album and I think it’s just being greedy? And the fact that other dongsaengs are buying without their parents knowing is very shocking. Take note, DONGSAENGS, which meant they are younger than me. And I’m just 15! How can you guys buy something so expensive without your parents knowing? Isn’t that too much, though? Even if I’m a very big fan of WINNER and I actually dedicate everything to them recently, I won’t go that far. One unnie, I think she’s 18, she opened a donation page for her to buy herself an album, the limited edition one. I was surprised she mentioned me in her tweets to help her RT about her donation page for her album. I know you want it so badly but donating? Really? Well, I’m not judging them or anything. I’m just ranting because I’m surprised at their sudden actions for an album. It might be limited edition and is special, I know, but it’s not worth it haha. If you really want it but can’t afford it at the moment then you can always buy it later on once you have the money. IDK. I’m just so…surprised. Oh and “InnerCircle”, really? YG, you let them debut after nine months and then create a non-connective fandom name after debuting? *claps*

On Red Velvet: I’m not one of their fans yet but I love these girls! THEY ARE SO ADORABLE! I’m Irene biased and Seulgi kept on wrecking my list. Aren’t they adorable?? And I don’t get why they receive lots of hate even after the release of their MV haha. They deserve to be loved! Cuties, seriously!

On APINK: EXCUSE ME BUT I’D LIKE TO SCREAM IN JOY LIKE THEY ARE THE ONLY GROUP (WITH BIGBANG) THAT GAVE ME THE REASON TO SMILE. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THEY CHEER ME UP. AND PINK PANDAS ARE SO NICE LIKE, I WISH I CAN UN-STAN EVERY GROUP I EVER LIKED AND FOCUS ON APINK (BUT THAT’S IMPOSSIBLE. EXO/WINNER/BIGBANG/SHINEE/ETC IS PART OF MY SYSTEM NOW) PINK SHOWTIME PLS. They have so many activities, like, everyone is given a chance and I’m very happy for that!

I’M JUST STATING MY OPINIONS AND THOUGHTS, I DO NOT INTEND TO OFFEND OR HURT ANYBODY HERE SO PLEASE DON’T START BASHING. PLEASE DON’T BE IMMATURE. THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING.

I just realized that WINNER and APINK will debut in Japan. EXO will have another album (rumored). Well, there goes my time.