I just want to let all my frustrations out. I’m sorry, to everyone who reads this, but can I just say how tired I am of EXO’s issues?

EXO was supposed to be my light, my inspiration, my vitamins and my sunshine. But ever since Kris filed a lawsuit against the agency, EXO, to be very honest, broke. I mean, yeah, they are successful—very successful to be exact, but they weren’t the same. I have already expected more issues to come but I never expected the issues to come earlier and about dating.

I have nothing against Girls’ Generation. Actually, I’m a SONE. I love my nine girls to the fullest and I always wished them for happiness and luck. Don’t get me wrong, okay? I love both EXO and SNSD. But, unfortunately, I will never ever ship them.

And to be frank, I really think their relationship will end after months and I’ll expect maybe early 2015 or sooner. I’m trying to be happy for them but… They’re just not my style LOL.

Oh, and, behind all the frustration goes back to the Kris incident. I just want to point out that ever since Kris “left” EXO, SM Entertainment suddenly gave the boys all the freedom he didn’t get most especially Baekhyun’s freedom in dating publicly. It’s not that Kris wanted to date as well, no. The other members were also given their “freedom” like Luhan acting in a movie and Lay gets to host a show in China.

And now, thankfully, Kris is part of a movie for a charity. It means he’s doing well and that he’s working on things quietly. Even though I miss that dragon so much, I respect his decision. Maybe one day, we’ll get the answers; the truth to everything.

On Taeyeon, she was, I believe, bullied by the immature fans and bashed her through Instagram. They say she posts some pictures about Baekhyun and their relationship. But after reading her translated comments, I felt my heart ache. Like, it was very heartbreaking. And since I’m a fan (and yes, Taengoo is my bias in SNSD), I can’t help but feel sad. I know she’s just like any normal human being who falls in love with unexpected persons. And the Cupid hit her heart to Baekhyun. I can imagine her crying and feeling sad. All I want to do now is to comfort her and be with her.

Kim Taeyeon doesn’t deserve to be bashed and to be bullied.

Okay, so, half of my frustrations goes to Chanyeol. I’m frustrated at how sad he must be feeling now. Yeah, he’s not homoual, I know. I do ship BaekYeol. But Baekhyun is the closest person to Chanyeol and I can’t imagine how he must felt about the dating thing. Since Kris was gone, I saw how lost his eyes were. He can’t simply smile cheerfully like before. He does smile yet…there’s this pain lingering at the end. I just can’t explain. I’m pretty sure the boys already knew about the dating thing. So I wonder how he must be taking it.

I wonder how hurt EXO is.

If I was given a chance to say something to EXO is that I wish for them to be strong. Suho must be in panic as well right now.

The whole fandom is.

Now, negative actions are getting bigger. A girl in Indonesia committed suicide after the BaekYeon issue. I’m not sure if that’s true but if it is, I think we all just need to calm the down and think.

500, 000 fans left their fancafe.

Fansites started shutting down.

Baekhyun’s “You’re all my girlfriends~” is making our heart break. I can’t believe he lied, though. He should’ve been careful of his words, his “promotional lines” to us because I’m tired of s like that.

Polarlight is one of the most famous fansite noona in the fandom for Baekhyun. She’s so dedicated to him. I thought that Baekhyun and Polarlight might have a relationship before but now… *sighs*

Polarlight even posted first “Our boy is in love, we’ll support him forever.”

But then she posted on her personal, “I’ve lost everything.”

I just don’t know what to do anymore. Please, make it stop. I wish this was a dream- a very scary nightmare. And when I wake up, I see twelve shining boys. Issueless. Innocent boys whom we loved since day one. Zitao, can you bring it back to MAMA era?

I thought EXO was my happy place. But the fandom is falling into pieces.

Ok so don’t mind me this is just a rant I just don’t know what to feel right now. Happy? Sad? Mad? Angry? I don’t know. No one knows. But no one is to be blamed or to be punished.

Do you guys know how much this affects my fic? :(((((((((((((((((((((((

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Meanwhile on the WINNER fandom:

WILL YOU GUYS DEBUT ALREADY LOL 

update:

OH MY GOD GUYS SERIOUSLY Y ARE YOU DOING THIS?? :(((

update:

OH COME ON NOW LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE GUYS 

AND WHAT? YOU'RE GOING TO WAIT FOR BAEKHYUN TO PRIVATE HIS ACCOUNT AS WELL? AND LOOK HOW MUCH DAMAGE AND LOSS WE DID OH MY GOD GUYS I CAN'T- IM JUST SO FRUSTRATED AND ANGRY. YES. IM ANGRY. WHATS HAPPENING TO THE FANDOM, GODDAMN IT???

I KNOW YOU'RE SHOCKED ABOUT ALL THIS BUT WHY HATE ON THEM GEEZ IM SORRY IF YOU THINK IM OVER REACTING BUT THIS IS JUST TOO MUCH. IM REALLY ANGRY.