Regarding my Looong Hiatus
Hey friends. Sooorrry for the extremely looong hiatus *bows 180 degrees* I apologize for the long and definitely uncalled for absence. I had a lot of reasons for being invisble for the last, I don't know... Four months? (waaah. That's a really long time *bows once more*)
The hiatus is of course brought about by school work (yes, even during breaks i still have schools works. Pity me.) but unfortunately, that is not all.
I have been inside the biggest writer's block that I have ever encountered in my whole life. Whenever I try to write, my mind just go mooong, and so did the monitor screen. I tried to type a few word vomits only to erase them right after. I spent three hours of frustrating tries that way. And so, I just close my laptop and call it a night, hoping that I find my inspiration the next day (too bad I didn't).
So finally, after thinking about it carefully and seriously over a large bowl of triple chocolate ice cream (yum!), I figured out what was wrong.
I realized that I had stalled. Though it's very (and I repeat very) hard to admit to myself, my love for our Infinite boys isn't just as overwhelming and gigantic as before. Yes. I still admire them. Still laugh at their crazy antics. But still, something's changed (curse you byun baekhyun and all you twelve kkaebssongs of friends). I find myself falling for a new group and as I sit in a corner and take a look at all my drabbles and ideas for possible fanfictions, I see them as my characters. My documents now full of Baekyeon drabbles, Chanlli fanfic ideas, even Kaistal one shots. Which is a very big problem.
But now, looking at myself, I can say that I finally got over that writer's block. Yeah, maybe exo had taken away a huge part of my fangirl heart but Infinite would always have that place inside me that cannot be replaced.
And so here I am, posting another chapter for Love Me Not, starred by still one of my prized ships Myungzy. I may still not be posting on a regular basis but I promise in the beginning of August, I shall be posting a lot more.
Thank you everyone. I love you all. God bless.
Saranghaja!!
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