Hey everybody,

Just wanted to let you know I'm trying to return to my stories and I think this time things will be a lot better.

It turns that I had a spine issue that had spread from my neck all the way through my entire torso - front and back. I had no clue what was wrong but I was in pain all the time and always miserable. My doctors thought because I'm young and had no broken bones that all I needed was a pep talk and a firm kick in the backside. Well, turns out I needed 6-7 months of physical therapy. 

Looking back, I realize that I had become very negative and impossible to get along with. Probably because I couldn't even lay down to sleep. I slept on the floor sitting up, or propped up in corners sometimes. And even though things got that bad my doctors were still telling me that nothing was wrong; that I was lying or exaggerating or making it up. My family members gave up on me. My best friend gave me no sympathy, saying it was expected that my doctors didn't help me since I probably just had fibromyalgia or something.

But the worst thing. aside from being in constant pain, was that I had also recently lost everything and everyone that had mattered to me in life. So even though I attempted to return to writing I kept failing and getting pissed off. Then about two months ago I woke up and decided to RECOVER. Everything that I had lost. No matter what I had to do or overcome to accomplish it.

I decided to find a doctor who would believe me and find the answer, and physical therapists who would help me. And if my friends and relatives wouldn't support me, I wouldn't expect them to. I'd simply support myself. And now finally, I am well on the path to recovery. I can write without pain. I got my life together and even got a job I'm really looking forward to. I rekindled my friendships and made some new ones. I replaced all the devices I broke.

Now I think it's truly safe for me to say that I can write again without getting injured and without giving up. I've finally learned something very important - how to think positively even when things are all going wrong. Even when everything looks and feels hopeless. I've finally learned how to push on through anyway.

So, I'm back. And I will try very hard to be the author that I have always wanted to be, even if it's just fanfic, it still means the world to me, and I know some of these stories mean a lot to some of you. So thank you for waiting all this time and never giving up on me, even when I had given up on myself.

xoxoxo

- Mena

also known as: ZeroTalent, Choco_Exotique and a host of other names lol (But I'm going back to my first name here IRollWithChanyeol soon)