Why?
My heart constricted in my chest, the pain unbarable, as I laid in my mothers' arms.
"Why?" I asked, my face burrowed into her neck. "Why does it have to hurt so much?"
Sobs wrecked my body, breathing long forgotten, as I began hyper ventilating, no longer in control of my lungs.
The emptiness, the loneliness, the helplessness I felt.
I breathed in gulps of air, that felt like I was suffocating myself, trying to calm down.
My eye burned, I couldn't breath through my nose, tears streaming down my face into her shirt.
It hurt.
It hurt more than ever.
Why does loss hurt?
Why does loosing a loved one have such a great impact on our lives?
Why do we feel like it's the end of the world?
I miss him...
I miss him more than ever....
I need him....
But he is no longer here...
My papa....my daddy....my everything....
"Why?" I asked again, begging for an answer. "Why does it have to hurt so much?"
My mother lays her head against mine, pressing a soft kiss against my tear stained cheeks.
"I don't know, sweet pea," she whispers, rubbing my back to calm me down, yet it does not help.
"I don't know."
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