I thought it would be best for me to write out my thoughts so that I won't suffocate anymore.

The whole ordeal is really bizzare. My initial thoughts when I first heard of the lawsuit was, "You've gotta be kidding me!"
But when SM confirmed it and everything went from bad to worse, I kept thinking "Why did he do it at the start of their promotions?", "Why just before their concert?", "Is he really suffering so much that he had to take action now?", "Is there a reason why he didn't tell the members?" and most importantly:

"Will everything be alright soon? Will he come back to us?"

I don't want EXO to seperate. Sure, I'm a full-time shawol. But EXO has accompanied me through lots of times as well, they have become a part of my life. OT12 is beautiful, and anyone can agree. When we saw them as EXO-M and EXO-K, we were all eager to see them as OT12. When our wishes were finally granted, we had no idea we could be this happy. Sure, at first I was like "How in the bloody world can you fit 12 guys into one stage?" Then I saw how full the stage was, and how synchronized they are. It was magical.

Then there came EXO's Showtime, with all of them being awkward turtles in the first episode. Like woah seriously, that's not how variety shows work boys! But they improved and when it was time to enter the haunted house, you could clearly see how bastard Baekhyun become (not cursing him, he's the diva after all. If he had long hair he'd be flipping it every single day like the fabulous he is!) and how comfortable they all became. Talking about Showtime makes me tear up, at the joy of what OT12 is.

Yes, I said 'is'.

Because half of me still believes that everything will be okay. Kris merely requested to have his contract relooked at, he is not terminating his contract. All he is trying to do is to confirm the validity of the terms that SM might or might not have breached. Now onto what I really think about the entire ordeal (Note: it's just my thoughts, take it with a pinch of salt). I am pretty sure that evidences are already collected, or at least most of it. The lawyer that is defending Kris mentioned that there is a high chance of settling this out of court. I think that Kris applied for a lawsuit against SM early, so that once promotions have ended, they can settle this privately. But some media decided to let the whole world know, and this is what happened. It blew out of proportion, SM is being as ty as hell (controlling their phones? Nope no chance, some ELFs and Cassies have told us about it), and it became the mess it is now.

But I feel that there is another side to the story. Though I strongly believe in my above thesis, I have to consider other points of view. Maybe there are some internal troubles and Kris is getting back at SM by using this. It's childish and all, but there could be an underlying problem we don't know. What happens internally and is not publicized we will not know. So unless both parties (SM and Kris) clear things up, the war will continue.

I am very angry at Kris at one point in time. I mean, he could have discussed his health and financial problems with s first, and tell them what he would do. Yeah sure everyone will be against the idea, but if he at least told them of his decisions, the members would not feel betrayed, if they really are. I'm quite sure the members are angry, especially the EXO-M members. But I have enough faith in them to believe that they will not be so childish to post their unhappiness all over Instagram and Weibo.

I'm now not siding with anyone and just hoping that each member is safe and healthy. All of them. Xiumin, Luhan, Kris, Suho, Lay, Baekhyun, Chen, Chanyeol, D.O, Tao, Kai and Sehun. I hope that Lay and Kai can have their waists properly checked because if not they are screwed when they are older, and maybe Tao as well. Tao's immune system hasn't been that good lately, with high fevers and all.

Lastly, I just want Kris to come back. Sometimes I want to turn back time to when EXO never existed, back to the time when M1 and M2 never existed. I want to turn back time to when there was only SHINee in my life. But I know turning back time is an act of cowardice, so I shall just force myself through this storm, whatever the end destination may be. I really just want our Galaxy hyung to stay, with SM agreeing to take better care of him. Having Shinhwa, Hangeng and JYJ leaving SM, we all know what SM is capable of. If they still want to save a little of their image, they should and must cooperate with Kris. He's the biggest player in China alongisde Luhan, I doubt SM would want to let him go. Things will be sour if he returns, but after a while, I believe that everything will be okay. Things will go back to normal, as long as he stays.

Oh and to any EXOtics reading this, please take care of your health. I'm starting to recover mentally, but my body isn't following my lead. I keep throwing up most of my food, except my lunch yesterday thank God. Please stay strong and healthy amidst of clearing search engines and balancing your studies/work!

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