I don't know if anyone will see this or even read this but I think I will feel better if I put this post up.

I fear of my exams that are starting next week and I don't feel prepared for them at all. For some of my classes we haven't even finished the course and I fear that not learning the contents will effect my ability to do well on the exams.

I fear the outcomes of my exams. What if I fail? What if I get a low grade? What if I can't progress onto the next year of college? The what ifs are circulating around my head and I fear that I can't succeed in the subjects I do.

I fear of the hard work and effort I put into my revision and failing in the end. Is a year of learning all the content going to be a waste of time? I feel as if my endeavour will achieve a minimal amount. I want to strive to do my best but will my attainments reach to a discontented grade?

I fear a lot. I fear for the future. I feel as if this exam will determine my future and effect the possibility of reaching my objective. Even though this is my first year of college, I feel as if though this will effect my path. If I fail I may have to stay for another year. I may need to change courses. I may even need to change my ambition. I feel a lot of stress and burden on my shoulders. I feel like I am weighed down. I just need space to be free, breath and just think about what I need to do to improve in a short space of time. I just need some guidance that could help me with my path ahead of me.

Fear is the factor that is stopping me from my aspirations and I feel as if though I can't overcome this barrier. Fear is my adversary.

J