this is the third time i dreamt of kissing an exo member. i hate myself. it wont happen anyway why bother having dreams that will delude yourself? i hate waking up feeling disoriented thhinking that my dreams did happen.

so i kissed chanyeol. it was quite an innocent peck on his lips. twice. in that dream he was my friend so it kinda make sense that i wouldnt have a full blown make out session with him /rolls eyes/ anyway he told me he like me and we became a thing. baekhyun was being a jealous little because my attention was on chanyeol.

i had a dream months ago that kris happened to be the new teacher in my school and at the same time he was my boyfriend (like does that even make any ing sense???). i bumped into him while i was walking out of the ladies and i was like "wait, why are you here?" and he said he was a new teacher. Kris even pulled me to a corner and kissed me twice before saying that he would bring me on a date later. my dreams are senseless in a way it doesnt have any sense.

about a year ago i dreamt of meeting kyungsoo on a trip to shanghai with my friends. we met at a cafe where he was having a date with minah (my dreams are always weird. take note). i think they were quarelling and when i entered the cafe, kyungsoo stood up and walked to me with a smile. he introduced me to minah as his girlfriend. he even sat with me on our pretend date till minah walked out angrily. i saw my friends outside and ran to towards them, leaving him behind. you know what happened next? kyungsoo ran after me saying i forgot something and then /poof/ a kiss. somehow he knew where i lived and visited me while baekhyun was hanging out with me. he totally barged in on our movie night. he got mad thinking baekhyun was to take me away and now /poof/ another kiss before he stormed off in anger.

tell me i'm crazy. i cannot continue this. the dreams are making me crazy. why do they have to kiss me twice? is this a sign that i am actually crazy? i take it as a yes.