i feel empty
i've been living another life.. another 20 lives in my mind
again
and right now at this moment
3 am
and I'm looking at my notes that can make at least 5 more chapters
and I'm feeling tapped out
i know i can keep writing
i know i can
but right now i just feel so empty

i feel like i need to go out into the world
and experience so many more emotions
that what i am, my soul, my self, my experience is not enough for the story to continue
tho i will continue
because i want to finish the story

but a storm is at my doorstep
and i can't bring myself to step out of it
what are these new experiences i'm looking for..

I'd be a fool to go out on a winter storm just to "explore" now would I..

just writing here to complain/get my anxieties out/just because i can
time to see if sleep will come