it's four days to a month and it doesn't get easier. 

the pain is excuciating. like a part of you has been really chipped away and lost. 

nothing, not anything can make up for the loss of you presence in my life.

i might be typing this when i'm half drunk, but i think you know my words are sober.

 

Andy, i miss you. 

 

i cherish to my heart now, every memory.

everytime you've considered me in your heart is a blessing. 

i'm honored and deeply blessed to have known you. 

to have been a part of your life is magnetic. 

i hope that i have brought you at least some joy like you did to me. i hope that i was someone magical. 

you were magical to me. 

you still are. 

 

nothing can describe this pain. 

the feeling of loosing someone like that. 

 

for every spark you've given to me, i hope that i have given to you some. 

 

thank you, for never judging me. 

for always, always being the big brother that i love. 

for the friends that you've brought together.

for the bond you've forged. 

 

i love you always

you were my best years

i've never called you "boss" and you know why. 

you were never a boss to me.

just always a friend. 

always a brother. 

 

i love you

and i miss you so much. 

 

be happy somewhere else. 

when i'm there, please welcome me. 

we'll party together again.