happy birthday to exo's maknae, oh sehun!

so like when i first started liking you, it was mostly because of your looks. don't get me wrong, but i didn't know what your personality was like or what was your role in the group. heck, i didn't even know you were the maknae. because i'm a noob, i only started being an exo fan since october because i'm not the type who really cares about new rookie groups. it was because i went to kcon in LA. i saw exo-m and i started to be a fan. honestly before kcon, i only knew who kai and luhan were. kai because everyone liked him and he was all over my dashboard on tumblr, and luhan because my friend liked him and told me about him. but after kcon i grew attatched and started to learn all the members and memorizing the lyrics, you know, the start of becoming a fan. then one day i was scrolling through youtube and i happened to click on the video of kai and you at that one radio show where you were dancing to sistar's 'alone' and taking selcas. tbh, i had no idea who you were since i was still a noob at the time. but, i can say that i got attatched to you right away. i remember thinking how handsome you were and i just fell for your adorable looks. so i figured out your name and searched more about you right away.

and that's when i found out that you were the poker faced maknae who loved to dance. the one who always had an emotionless expression on his face, but was really shy and had a soft spot in you. your shy smiles during interviews and your shy waves to your fans. i can tell that you're really not the aegyo type and isn't really comfortable doing it, but you do it anyways for us, your fans, to be happy. i then watched all of the exo teasers and your dancing had me mesmorized. i remember how i thought your dancing was really cool. i loved how you had your own mini style when you danced. then i watched more and more videos of you and found out you had a lisp. i thought that was so freaking adorable. usually, lisps annoy me because i know a bunch of people who has lisps, but yours, man yours just made me fall for you even more. i never knew how cute a lisp can be. like, really. but recently, i don't hear it so i think that you lost it. which i'm kinda glad for because it annoys me when people make fun of it or stuff and type like 'thehunnie' or whatever. i feel like they're making fun of you and stuff, and i don't like it. and dude, your smile is just so cute. you're freaking eyesmile is adorable. i hope in the future you'll show it a lot more often c: but who knew that the boy posing for a selca in that video would be my ulimate bias today?

do you know that i absolutely love your nose? and your lips? and all 181cms of you? HAHA why do you always have to your lips or stick out your tongue? and why do you have to be so tall? do you know how short i am?! i'm like a midget if i stand next to you! and what haunts me the most is that you're still growing... you're only 19 (internationally) so you still have a few years. omg, i swear if you grow to be 6ft, which you almost are, i'm going to sob in a corner because of how short i am. i also love how you clap when you laugh, because that's a habit that i have as well. i find it cute how in interviews, sometimes when you're asked a question you stumble on your words and so one of your hyungs has to answer for you. it's cute and it just reminds me how young you actually are. it must be hard for you because you had to mature faster than anyone else, and as the youngest you have to work just has hard has everyone else. i admire you for becoming a trainee at such a young age for five years. it must've been hard for you,  and everyone else, and i admire your hard work and dedication. i want to thank you for working so hard, and to that staff lady who chased you around for 30 minutes. if it wasn't for her, who knows where you'd be right now.

there are a lot of times were i worry for you a lot. your constant dying of hair. you said that your scalp is already hurting, but yet you keep dying it. you say that if it's for the fans then you're willing to do anything, but you know what? sometimes there are times when you have to think about yourself before others. yeah, i know it's not your choice but the company's, but still. us fans worry about you. i'm also amazed in how you can pull off all those different hair colors though. some people don't look good at it at all, but you, even with green or purple hair, still looks breath taking. you know, i always wonder if whenever you dance, does your floppy hair bother you? because whenever you do dance, it just always gets on your face and i wonder if it bothers you lol.

anyways, i'm really glad i'm part of the exo fandom. i'm glad that i got to know twelve amazing, dorky, good looking and talented group of boys that can never fail to brighten up my day. mostly, i'm glad that i got to know you, oh sehun. you lighten up my world with every little thing you do. whenever you smile, i find myself smiling along with you. whenever you're hurting, i'm hurting as well. it's now been a year since exo debuted, but i feel like i don't really know the real you yet. i want to know more about you sehun. i want to know what your real personality is like. are you really the bratty maknae prince sehun everyone thinks you are? hopfully this year us fans will learn a lot more about you and as well as the rest of exo. i know that you and your hyungs are working really hard and practicing your butts off for us for the comeback, so i'll just wait patiently. but just remember to think about your health first! i want you and exo to be healthy and happy! do you know that i pray for your guy's heathliness and happiness every day because that's really all i can give in return from all the hard work and effort you give us. i really hate it when people say that your usless in the group but you know what? they're wrong! exo will never be exo without you. without you, exo would be incomplete. sehun, you're important okay? always remember that. you're important to me.

sehun you make me so happy without even trying. you make me smile so effortlessly. you make me feel so much better whenever i have a horrible day. when i'm weak and feel like giving up, i think of you and i gain strength again. when i'm sad and feel like i'm a mistake for this world, you and exo keep me strong. i keep my head high with a smile on my face and keep moving on, just like you. oh sehun you mean a lot to me, and you're so special to me. i really wished that i was a fan since the teasers came out, but  i wasn't and i regret it. a lot. i missed a lot of things since then. especially when you went to disneyland. when i found out i didn't really know you guys, but i was still freaking out because it was just a kpop group wandering around disneyland. so you know how close i live to disneyland? otl. i also can't believe that you guys went to the philippines and sang in taglog. i'm filipino and i was very touched, i cried. i literally died inside when you said 'mahal kita'.

sure i wasn't a fan from the start, but i promise that i'll be a fan until the end. i'll keep supporting you with all of your other millions and millions of fans in this world. i'm sorry i can't really giving much to you, but all i can give is my love and support. i promise you that i'll stick by your side through thick and thin. i'll watch you slowly grow as an idol and i'll always sit here behind my computer screen cheering on for you like a proud fan. hopfully one day i'll be able to meet you and the rest of exo, then i could finally cheer you on just like everyone else. i'm sure that exo will be big and change history in the future. i'll be there, walking that road beside you knowing that i didn't stick with from the start, but i sticked with you until the end.

oh sehun, thank you for just being you. i wouldn't like it any other way. you're perfect just the way you are. happy birthday.

- from, a fan