sighs

my life isnt the worst but its rly ing bad

my family left me and went to live in seattle cos my dad found a job there so im here in japan living on my own

two days ago, my dad came to japan on his own and stayed with me and i have to pay for his when my income isnt that great and he works - they BOTH work but dont send me yet he has the nerve to come here and ask me to lend him half of my pay when i only get 27,997 (approx. 200$) yen a week and have to buy food and pay for rent which costs ing 195,979 (approx. 1,400$) yen and i have to pay for clothing food electricitiy and everything to keep myself alive

but now i dont even want to live there's really no point to life for me now

my family isnt with me

im working like a slave yet i still have so much loans at the age of 20 

marsha cheated on me and its over her 

and i have to get back to uni soon and pay for it from my penniless pockets

guys i havent had starbucks in over 4 months

depressing, isnt it? i cant even waste money on that

to be completely honest, its the lamest thing ever, but writing every rose is the only thing keeping me alive (and my turtle)

im always like that story got me far in writing might aswell complete it then die

so

yeah

if my life hasnt improved by the end of every rose we'll meet in the after life

if it has, then great ill move to australia and raise my turtle there 

/EVEN MY MARIMO BALL DIED WHAT IS THIS TRAGEDY/