Hey bby...

Today I woke up and I felt a bit empty, I felt like doing nothing at all for nothing. well is not a thing unusual latelly to me but today afected my mind also.
Today I felt like something was missing.. but deep down I knew what it was... is you, you are the one I am missing, you are the one that I need right here by my side.. but I can't have, not just yet I guess, right? that's what I hate. the waiting, I just don't think I can hold more.
I have other things in my mind, in my heart. I afraid that if I tell you, you will let me go, cus I don't want you to let me go. 
I still love, don't even question that cus I do with all my heart.
But there are some few things freaking my view, my heart and mind.. that so called friends of yours... I'm sorry but I can't help be jealous. just stating the obvious, you say no but I don't believe, if you'd know that I have a guy friend talking sweetly to me and being with me when you can't would you feel insecure, not questioning our love for each other, but the need a person have when are in love, all the care and atention? where is it? for me I would never go to some other guy for a few words he said to me, I will wait for the moment to be with you and recieve all you have to give me with all your love, I will, I swear for my and my dads life. but lets see the diferences, your a guy and she is a girl, tsk I don't even know if that the real her in those pictures, so much called friends and no pic together? ah, ow funny is that? I came to found out that a lot of things aren't like we see. anyways, if that the real she... I do need to worry, not because of you, because of her. I admit, now I don't like her very much, after all that scene... and that's another subject we do need to talk about more further. when 2 people are together don't they have the right to know about the other life? it isn't just the future and the present that matter but the pass also and mostly the present. I would tell everything about me to you, all my friendships, boys and girls, my first time, my first kiss, my first heart break, even my deepes secrets I would tell you, but you can't tell me who are your friends and what you do with them? to me sounds kind of wrong. it wasn't a thing of not trusting you, you can't see in my shoes but if you could I believe you would understand. the only friends I call "love" and "honey" are girls, I have boy friends and I never called them "love" that's the diference.. but guess that's all wrong and stupid in your eyes right? so I'll let it go. sorry 'bout that...
I love you, I do, I really do, a lot... god knows how much.. only I know how much I freak out sometimes... only I know how much I miss talking to you... only I know how some things that happens hurst my feelings..

but whatever bby, I want you next to me as soon as possible, I want to claim you mine and hug you until there is no more air between our bodys.
I love you a lot, I feel like screaming to the world, write in every streets. but I am to small for it, I'm only 1,52cm :(

SNAEY~