18th July

~ they say love comes when we less expect... well, I juts ended a relationship and clearly didn't wanted any other boy bugging my head so my heart was closed. this one day my cousin introduced me to a Japanese boy, he was really sweet and down to earth. I had a friend in him, a guy friend which I could never say I had one. One other day my cousing said that he had a friend and he wanted to introduce to me as well.. so I met this boy, the totally opost of my 'idial type' and since the moment we started to talk there was something wierd between us... we became friends *actually cousin's cus they said they were my cousin brothers so that make them my cousins -.-* and yeah, we talked every day. in their hour time it was at 19h to 12h/2h and 6h to 8h/9H and in here was something like 14h to 16h/17h and 20h to 22h. so it was very dificult to talk with them sometimes. we talked about everything, music, past relationships, our current life, our wishes... everything.

20th August

~ I was missing he too much, the boy that was nothing to be my idial type was now becaming it. I couldn't keep one day without talking with him, I woudl freak out. that was when I understood I had feelings for him and I needed to tell him, because somehow I guess I knew he had feelings for me too, but I had that feet back. My cousing made me do it and I did it. I left him a message: