"Hyung don't go... don't go without saying anything!" Sehun whispered as Luhan began to turn away. 

"HYUNG!" Sehun shouted this time, grasping on to Luhan's wrist. 

"Go Sehun, just go" Luhan barely gritted through his trembling lips. Sehun couldn't see it though, the pain that contorted through Luhan's face when he spoke those words. 

"No hyung, you're supposed to hold on to, cherish me. Like I do." Sehun said through broken sobs. Each cry pierced through Luhan's heart, slowly shattering it. 

Luhan wasn't supposed to do this. He had the resolve to push Sehun away and not hurt others anymore. But here he was hurting both his love and himself. 

"Please hyung..." that came out barely as a whisper. 

Luhan could feel every bit of him just melt away at the sound of Sehun's pain. He was torn, what was he to do? Blindly love without seeing a plasuible outcome?  Push him away in hopes that he'll find better, better than himself. 

"Sehun you know I can't. You know I don't lov-"

"SHUT UP HYUNG!" Sehun cried out again, unwilling to hear lies being spouted out of his hyungs mouth. 

"Shut up, just shut up and stop lying. You know you love me. You're just avoiding the REAL problem!" Luhan froze upon hearing those words. 

The real problem, he knew? At this point, tears had already streaked down his face. Unable to hold back anymore, Luhan broke through Sehun's grip on his wrist and let his whole body fall to the ground. Quiet cries of pain could be heard from the huddled figure on the floor. 

Sehun knew he wasn't supposed to do this to his love, but he needed to smack some sense into him, or else he'd lose Luhan forever. 

"Hyung, don't do this to me, to you, to us. I know you're afraid of the future, but can't you just let me walk on into the future together?" Sehun said lovingly to Luhan as he walked around the huddled man, crouched down and lifted up Luhan's face to see each other eye to eye. 

Luhan's eyes were b with tears that had not yet fallen, his large doe eyes full of pain, sadness and fear. Luhan couldn`t bare to look into his loves eyes, afraid to see the hate, or anger, or pain... whatever it may be. He choose to bury his face into Sehun`s chest. 

"Sehunnie, I'm so afraid." 

Sehun began rubbing soothing circles on the crying man's back. 

"Why me, why me, Baby why me?" 

"I love you hyung, I love you so much" Sehun whispered softly over and over again in attemps to calm Luhan down. 

"-hunnie, Sehunnie. I can't let you go. But I hav-"

"No, you're wrong Han, You don't have to. I'll be here. Even if you push me away, I'll be here. I will always be here. I will never leave, not in this life, not in the next." 

"Sehunnie...I need you. I love you." 

Luhan lightly pushed himself from out of Sehun's chest. He rasied his head to see his love staring lovingly back at him. Without a second thought he closed the distance between the too, placing a gentle kiss on the younger's lips. 

I love you, i love you, I can't let you go .I need you.