I. Just. Don't. Freaking. Know. Anymore. Or. Anything. 

I just want to fly away and shut out the day.

Leave behind anything but thoughts of yesterday.

I don't know what's wrong and I can't find what's right,

this night is going to be the worst of my life. 

Too many thoughts running through my head,

not enough stuffed animals in my bed.

I can't hold on much longer

with you always slipping away.

No more words to say

to make you stay.

I can't help but feel this way

but just to just shut out the day.

Wow, I just wanted to write I don't know in how ever many ways I could possible but ened up with a peom (if you can even call it that.) Well, I guess I'm going back into my poem phase. The only place where I can let my emotions show and try to forget everything. I don't think I'll be able to talk this one out..... nevermind, I know I can't and I wont. Just too much to say and not enough days to make things okay. What. The. . Is. Wrong. With. Me. I think I just dissapoint myself way too much. Or when I think things are okay, things just slip away and I beat myself up for wondering what the I did wrong. Or I ponder about the next day and the things I can do to make things okay. But I always end up finding out everything was okay but then I go back to thinking that way and when things change I can't help but feel that I ed up everything or I'm just..... I don't know. I don't know any ing thing anymore. I don't know what the I'm feeling right now and I can't help but feel let down.