this blog might not be the most coherent thing right now, because i just wrote another blog unplanned just now due to gugudan and i haven't blogged before that in ages also it's 2am and before this i had a project discussion finalising applications so my brain is not in the best state it can be

SO before i blabber anymore, let's get to what i am here for

2020 has been an awful year or it might seem to be because of disrupted plans and boredom from quarantine but it also has its fair share of memorable and exciting happenings i must say. and that aside, i have also written quite a bit in the past year and would like to just talk about my progress with my writing over 2020! i haven't done this before but i did keep track of my stats this year and i just thought i should just review all my writing too

so in 2020, i released 6 new fics, 2 of which are collections. in January with the release of Crossroads there was 또다시 발견한 너 / Memoria which had 4 (well, 3 + an epilogue) small chapters; next towards the end of March at the beginning of all the closing down due to the pandemic i put up i love and know you, which is a combination of 2 of my earlier wips (i went to check, both were constructed on midnight of Jan 2 ie first night of the year in some sense); amidst the pandemic i also created a new GFriend collection to conclude the previous one since it's been half a decade since their debut and they were pretty much entering a new 'era' (okay i guess it was just many small changes in many different aspects like how i was as a Buddy before and how i am as a Buddy now) so we have 回：시간을 달려서 / Across the Time, where i managed to put out 5 oneshots in the year. the next was (supposed to be) a collection Through Countless Nights because i was watching the drama again and wanted to dump the oneshot i wrote somewhere. ok not dump but put it up. it was also amidst the pandemic (wow quarantine really stimulated my writing that much, i wrote other things that don't go on aff too) that i created a new chaptered story, 같이 일몰을 볼래? (Would you watch the sunset with me?) and i was writing it a lot i wanted to update and finish quickly but my plotline, pretty ambitious, is too long to be done so quickly + i haven't been writing it since the semester started. though, i got 6 chapters up for it. then in the semester i got so busy i didn't write as much, the next time i put out a fic was already the winter vacation: you mean so much to me, another mainline like i mentioned, was started at first in the pandemic and therefore set in the situation of the pandemic. i always liked the premise so i decided to finish it, and have it up, and by finishing it i expanded it into 3 short chapters. 

in terms of updates, there was my most updated fic Poco a poco, con voi (Little by little, with you) which seeing how it has been seems to be the actively ongoing fic for me, with a total of 7 updates of it this year (which includes a special). if you guys have been reading this you perhaps know that fic is my baby and you would know i have been writing it from early 2019 wherein the year i updated more frequently especially before i started university, as i was working and i updated almost every week then. i can't believe it has been 25 updates already, and the chapters aren't short (to me, at least) and at the length it is now it would be over 250 pages of a novel already. i thought it might only be halfway through the plotline but going back to check thankfully it's not that far from the end otherwise this would really be the slowest and the most draggy story i've persevered through in my writing— because this is already my longest fic up on aff and at the rate i'm going it does look like i can complete it although i am not sure when. anyway, apart from this fic, i made a total of 28 updates in the year, which is on average 2-and-a-third updates in each month but then again most of my updates were in the months of the quarantine (i have decided to stop saying amidst/in the months of the pandemic bc i realised that places elsewhere the pandemic is still roaring and it is only where i am where it was crucial for just those few months and in the second half of 2020 it was improving so well life seems to almost be normal again— though of course, still NOT normal, with so many complications like online classes and et cetera i am blabbering way TOO much in this blogpost) and in the past month because vacation means long nights of tranquility and solitary which sometimes, fortunately, when i'm lucky, give me bursts of inspiration to churn out updates.

okay that was a lot of blabbering, bless you if you have actually read till here. anyway, thank you to everyone who has been with me on my writing journey for the year of 2020; i am not sure how much i can write in 2021 because the next semester is a hell semester also 2021 has a lot of adulting elements for me oh no adulthood so that makes me pretty busy i don't know if i can churn out updates, even if i write more things bc i may not be able to put them up here on aff for you guys to read. but thank you again, really, without all of your support i don't think i would've come thus far as a writer, if i can even qualify as one. 

here's wishing everyone a better 2021 <3

p.s. if anyone is wondering (or i might just be superfluously self-concerned) i am abandoning twitter, yes, i don't have time for stan twt anymore, and also with gugudan's announcement today, i have realised more fervently than ever the need to stay away from stan communities on social media. but connect with me on here if you shall. it is almost 3am now after all that blabbering and i shall get off to some rest.