i haven't written gugudan fics in a while, haven't been chasing their stuff for a while, haven't been an active danjjak, not since their last comeback i sort of felt that would be the last comeback. (sort of knew from when hyeyeon left that the future would be bleak. and w xiening in china, all the more.) but i truly loved these girls, having gone through ups and downs w them as my support system, esp kim nayoung with whom i was so alike, having also met them, and that encounter being so encouraging and just so magical in so many ways, an encounter that left gugudan and especially haebin a special spot in my heart never replaceable. 

it's the end now, the end we didn't not foresee, i'd want to both cry because it's over and smile because it happened. it is unfair, it is unfair how our time have to end like this, it is all the more unfair how each of you worked so hard to chase your dreams and-- for nayoung who overcame so much to be here, only to end like this, for haebin who really worked so hard-- for all of them-- none of them deserved this. i will talk about this another time if i get to doing so. but also for the time that has happened, thank you so much for the beautiful memories, for being w me thru ups and downs in the 4 years; the days we shouted "1234 구구단 break it!" have passed, and will always remain a shining memory.

i want to say sorry so many times. words also cannot express the love and gratitude i hold in my heart, and cannot express as well how sorry i am for you girls. what's ahead now, i don't know, that's unsettling and scary, but i wish all the best for all of you. i love all of you so much. please be well.