Jonghyun Oppa, it's been almost two years since you've left the earth and gone to heaven. My heart continues to shake at your name and I still occasionally cry myself to sleep. I still need to remind myself to celebrate your life rather than mourn death. It's so hard though, my lungs feel like they're drowning from my tears. I can't be the only one still crying. I basically grew up on your music, began listening to you and SHINee in 2012 I will Never forget your beautiful voice. You got me through some of my darkest times and gave me the hope and determination to move on. My heart is crushed to know you couldn't go on any more. Obviously I will never meet you now but I can't help regret in my 5 years of listening to you is that I never got to see you live. I know I'd never have been able to, but my heart aches to hug you oppa. Maybe in our next lives I'll get to meet you ❤️ I hope the afterlife is treating you 2x as good as you old life. Saranghae Kim Jonghyun!!