Hey, so I was in a relationship with a guy. I knew him for 1 month before I figured that I like him and soon we are together. Everything is sooo sweet with late night video calls, constant texting and suddenly poof! He went missing for 3 MONTHS. He didn't pick up my calls, didn't read my texts and since we were together not for long. I moved on.

3 months later

He comes back, and I was still single so I get back to texting him. We were so close but we didn't talk about me. Everything is about him. He's a control freak, let me list the reasons for you:

1. Only he's allowed to call me

2. We should talk when it fits his time and not mine

3. We should only talk about what ineterests him at the time

4. I should dress a certain way he likes

I was dumb and in love, I put up with it for more than a year. It was toxic and I know it but too afraid to admit.

On his instagram he still have pictures of his ex, their sweet messages to each other and sometimes he compared me with her.

I was the only one in love, I'm a hobby to him. He comes looking for me when he wants to, and didn't bother to talk to me when he's not interested. he read my texts but don;t reply. When I told him I'm sick, he didn't even check up on me. He still left my texts on read.

So I left him, it took me 2 years to gain the courage

Don't be like me please

If he's toxic to you, just leave. I know it's not easy but trust me.. you will start living a greater life. 

I'm happy now, my world has stop revolving from whether he's going to text me or not. 

For now, romance is dead

I'm going to focus on myself

When the right one comes

I will love again