In the last few months, things keep going downhill.

I went back to my hometown in May to take care of my relatives that was sick. But I couldn't handle the negativety, I kept a strong face and ignore all the negativety, I thought, I can do this. Don't be discouraged.

But when another relative came to visit, (a married couple) the husband ually assaulted me. I just got back from the hospital after 2 days I didn't sleep. I fell asleep and he came into the room and started hugging me and kissing me. I was half alseep when I finally realized what was happening.

I FELT LIKE CRAP

But they thought it was a small matter, because apparently I didn't look stressed? And I thought to myself, was I over reacting? After 3 weeks, I finally can get a grip of myself. (honestly very little) really.

Then, soemthing happened again, my lil get into a little bit of trouble, and they (my relatives) accused him of taking drugs and wanted to send him to rehabilitation. Like WTF? I got so angry, so pissed off.

I thought I couldn't take it anymore, but my mom took action and defended my brother. But my relatives won't stop talking crap. They even bad mouthed me behind my back. I'm about to lose it.

But the final blow was that, two weeks later..

I got a call from my mom (mom lives in the city)

"your father passed away"

and I shattered completely.

Usually, I get back on my feet, but now, 1 month have passed, I don't know what I'm feeling, I don't know what's wrong with me.