It's been a week since the thing happened.

I'm not really angry with my mother anymore but I'm kind of wistful? I honestly don't want to think about it anymore.

She has stopped belittling me thankfully, and I'm determined to steer clear from her at any costs. I've been kind of cold towards her too, not because I'm unfilial, just because I don't want to trigger her again and restart the vicious cycle.The past years I've been living in a bitter nightmare, and now that I've been saved from that nightmare it seems like reality tastes just slightly sweet.

Also I've decided to never talk back to her anymore because no matter what I say, she'll never listen. Why waste the energy to fight? She's too powerful and I'm nothing.

Maybe it's even "filial" because I'm not supposed to talk back to my parents anyway.

Do I feel hurt? I don't know but I'm kind of numb already. I'm not supposed to show any negative emotions to anyone, especially not my parents who have done so much for me. I shouldn't burden them.

School restarting has really boosted my mood. I'm the happiest when I'm with my friends, and the second happiest when I'm alone, like really alone, without anyone in the house, in my bedroom blasting music without anyone judging. 

At this point I'm just babbling but I just want to let everyone who's read my previous blog know that I'm fine. And thank you to the two commenters for the words of comfort! Sorry for not replying the comments but I've read them. 

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