I don't know where to start, but I've been bottling things up for quite some time. I have nobody to turn to,and I don't feel like anybody would understand me. Crawling up to the fact that today is already January 13,I still have no good expectations toward 2018. Why do I feel everything has turned into mess? A really huge mess that left unfixed. Didi is getting worse. Why is it so hard to stay at home, Didi? Don't you know how lonely Mommy is? I know you are feeling lonely too. You have no man (like real man as a spouse) but WHY DO YOU KEEP YOURSELF SURROUNDED WITH BUNCH OF MARRIED GUYS?? You get them all fall for you. Are you really that desperate that you want to steal other woman's husband ? Don't you ever think about the feelings of their family,wife,children. I seriously cannot brain that she keeps texting her male friend all the time. And when I say male,it means,that guy is already married. What would his wife feel if she knows that her husband is texting to a woman,and plus that woman is a widow? Just put yourself in the woman's shoes,Didi !!!! Didi,please know that you already left Mommy for at least 7 hours a day. Mommy is alone for more than 7 hours a day. Yes,she can do everything on her own. She can cook,she can manage herself very well. But have you ever thought how does it feel to dine your breakfast,lunch and maybe dinner all alone? Didi,Mommy is getting older day by day. Can we please use this precious time that we still have to make her happy ? We don't know who will go first,be it us or her. Yet,you shamelessly go out at night and only come home after midnight. You think you are brave enough? You think you are so independant hm? You feel safe huh? Didi,I just want to remind you that you are blessed with a very beautiful son. Your son already have a bastard as his dad,so could you please at least be a good mom to him? All a child ever need is time to spend with their parents. But what are you doing ? You think just because you are giving everything that he wanted, your job as a mom is done? You already took that as a good job? You neglect him,Didi. Please don't ruin his life. Please get to your sense and take responsibility. And Zizi,how do I talk about you ? The fact that you are gonna get hitched real soon,somehow I dont feel 100% good about it. I still sense that you are still not ready for the marriage. You just feel insecured that everybody at your age is getting married and that's why you are doing it too. But I hope what I think is wrong. Please don't change yourself after you get married. That's all I ever wanted. To Mommy,please don't be sad because I will always be there when you need me. I love you more than I love myself. Don't worry about who are you going to stay with in future,if Didi,Zizi,Nana,Noel and Noah can't,I will take care of you. Even if I have to quit my studies,I'll do everything for you. I love you Mommy. Smile.