I've mentioned this numerous times. SHINee and DBSK came to me during a time when I needed guidence and strength. I was a lost child, lost in a crowd of negativity and like the light at the end of a long tunnel, they came to me. It was the summer of 2008, the greatest summer of my life, I always tell people that. As time went on, I started to drift away but you were always home to me. It didn't matter how far I went, the moment I saw you, heard your voice, I always turned around because you are home. You were the reason I pushed through and became the person I am today. It's been nearly ten years and I'm always proud of the journey we took together, side by side.

I wish I could've done the same for you. I wish I could've protected you from this world, from your inner demons. I feel like I've failed you because you cried out and I didn't reach for you fast enough. I kept telling myself you'd overcome it all and we'd walk a long path together. I'm sorry. You shined brighter than anyone but you also hurt more than everyone. Depression is such an evil monster and I wish so bad I could bring you back. If I keep calling your name, can I see you again? You did well, Jonghyun. You've gone through a lot and you've worked hard. Those are the words you probably yearn the most. If I keep saying it over and over to the skies, will they let you return?

In the nine plus years that we were together, thank you. Thank you for being SHINee's Jonghyun. Thank you for being Jonghyun. Thank you for exisiting. I don't want to send you away because I don't want to imagine a world without you but I don't want you to be in pain anymore. 수고했어요 정말 고생했어요, 종현아. I pray you find peace and the happiness you always searched for. I hope we meet again one day and hopefully then, I can tell you the story of summer you came into my life. From a shining star on the stage to the brightest star in the sky... I will forever miss you. I will forever search for a person like you in everyone I meet. Thank you for being a part of my youth. I love you.

Even though at this moment it's hard to smile, I'll send you away with the words you wanted to hear the most.

수고했어요 종현아.

고생했어요 종현아.

정말 고생했어요, 종현아.