Hm, first of all, this is not a good time/good mood to trashing in here, i just dont know where i wanna write this kinda feeling. 

About their lattest album Holiday to Remember, 5 fingers with thread around it, 5 fingers, i still dont get it that time. But i get it now, 5 others will keep continue the journey, while my mushroom, my maknae & my soo will have their own path. 

Many sone that angry and hate towards them, but hey, they also have a life to live on, they also have a dreams, let them be, and maybe oneday, oneday they will reunited again, i believe it. Because their bonds is trully eternal, they are more than friends, more than sisters, only they know how to separate from one another. But the hard one must be to meet Tiffany my mushroom, she's so far far away, across the world with different time zone.

I just saw her cousin ig, about the different path and to continue n pursue what we dream of. And my mushroom like it. I bet she's been down and misses her other members especially you know who, her other half, her taetae. Well their journey to separate just begun, maybe and just maybe, they will meet again and who knows what will happen next. Like tae's latest tattoo called Purpose and my mushroom tattoo called always and forever. They tattoed their and only God knows what it means, and i believe they will find their silverlining from this. Sone just found this news, while they already know. So with us sone being torture n hurted like this, they feel the same thing too, why i say like this? Because i just know, thats all. 

Between my mind and my work is undefined, it's reckless, i feel toss n torn, im thinking about them, especially my taeny. Look i know all author nims that write about them, what are they feeling now, as i and they believe in the same line : believeintaeny. Grown up, they are grown up, just like us. They wanna feel it too being grown up without their other halfs, they wanna out from their own boxes, they wanna out from their comfort zone, so they can be more stronger than before and will gonna meet eachother again with different kind of feeling as a new n blossom feeling and the bonds grows stronger than before. 

I just wish and also hope the best for them, separate or not, they are still girls generation, they just need a space, who knows what the future will make. Damn it still hurts. But i bet you are gonna be much hurt when you guys will on the stage in singing Into The New World, what will it be? What will it be? Can you guys not crying infront of us? Can you guys not hold your tears infront of us? Bcause hell no! We will cry and bursting tears together. That's how much i love you guys.

Thank you maybe it's never gonna be enough, it wont be enough. You gave us much much works of art, memories, just dont change, we are the same sone who will lift you up when you were down, we are always gonna be here forever, just remember that.

Dhany, your old sone, my age is more old than you ladies, but i really enjoy your presence, brings something new, i dont like kpop/korea before, but because of you, i wanna watch kdrama or shows, but i only idolize you only, that's all that matters.

October 9-10 2017 the day that i wont ever forget, until then, keep on sailing lads! Cheers!