Maybe I should just stop...

Maybe I should just stop writing once and for all...I haven't been able to write, not properly at least these past few weeks (months even). I don't know what happened...I just can't anymore. Maybe I've lost my inspiration. Maybe I was never good enough in the first place and I just started to realize that. Or maybe I'm just tired of writing and pouring my heart out and not getting the least bit of recognition in return. I spend time and time writing a chapter and I barely get any feedback. I mean I just want to know if my readers liked it, I just want to know their thoughts, their opinions because they matter. They do. They help me improve as a writer and inspire me to write more and more. 

I don't know. Maybe I'm being too overdramatic. Too sensitive. I just don't know what to do anymore. Writing has been my only savior these past years. It kept me sane. It helped me let out my deepest frustrations. It helped me escape from my daily life. From everything. But now, now I can't even write. I try to but it's not as easy as before. It feels forced. Unatural. 

I...I lost the only thing that kept me afloat.

What is there left for me to do?

Nothing.

Writing defined me. It was a part of my identity.

But now...

Now I don't even know who I am anymore.

Maybe someone will read this.

Maybe no one will.

It doesn't matter...I just needed to let it all out and this was the only place I could think of.

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Skai07 #1
I know exactly how you feel , I used to draw but now I don't anymore and even when I used to try I couldn't get the inspiration nor the motivation and it was frustrating because I didn't want to give up on drawing but at the same time I didn't feel like doing it . I tried to force myself but it didn't work , it has been years now and I don't feel like I can draw anymore and I am afraid to try tbh , it's sad really .
I just don't want you to think that you weren't good enough because you totally were . You know how much I loved your stories and your writing style and believe me when I say I used to anticipate every chapter and seeing you update used to make my day
I am sorry your stories did not get the recognition they deserved, I really I am .
You should give yourself a break , take your time to get your inspiration back and come back whenever you feel like you're ready .
If you feel like talking about it , I am here ;)
Take care of yourself, much love ♡
Mikka_ #2
Your stories are one of the best we can found on aff, so please don't doubt of your talent !
I'm one of those annoyong silent reader, so I'm sorry if I don't really give a feedback, if I like it I usually upvote !
But, even if I don't write (I play piano and I usually post some video online), I think that you should write for yourself and not for the other!
Be proud of what you write ! I want to thank you to let us be a part of your world by sharing your stories!
KaihleeLo #3
When writing becomes a job instead of a hobby then all you need is a break :) Don't stop writing (because if you do than I might as well too. You're a much better writer than I am. Your stories are proof of that so don't you dare fight me on this one xD). When you're inspired to write again the passion will come back to you~ We're writers for a reason~ It that a handful of writers on here aren't recognized for their talents and skills, but trust me you're more than deserving. Keep writing, someday the masses will see it :D Fighting!
ephemeralglimpse #4
I know what you feel. I oft tell myself that I write solely for the story, and try not to dwell too much on the views or 'popularity' of it. I write because I want to, and because I get excited on writing more of the story I came up with. But if you truly must feel like you've lost motivation/inspiration then don't force yourself and take a break. Listen to new music or just read new stories to get inspired. The urge to write will naturally get back.

Now the dilemma of not receiving feedback as much as we'd like to isn't something we can control as writers. I know I myself needs to work harder as a reader to give feedback, and recently I've been more mindful of leaving a kind note to stories I particularly enjoyed. It's okay to feel this way, I think all writers do at some point. Try to just let the words out and don't give up on something you love to do. Writing a story is for YOU mostly. Whether it has ten comments or ten thousand comments it doesn't change the fact that you were able to build a world with just words, and that alone is beautiful.
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