You wake up in the morning feeling sad is what starts my day.

I feel sad and depressed. About myself, my school activities, loss interest with what I’m doing. Why do I feel so alone.

Empty.

And lost.

I lost myself. I saw her before clearly, but now she’s nowhere to be found. It’s like I’m slowly drowning to the endless pit of darkness where I can’t breathe, I can’t reach out to anything as I slowly lose my sight to the other side of brightness and joy.

I’m still me. I’m still the same.  Yet, I can’t differentiate what I used to be and what I’m supposed to be now.

Because I’m lost. I’m lost as I drown and helplessly reaching out for air.

Walking in the broad daylight with a face smiling at you. Masking the sadness and empty longingness for human hugs.

A mere shadow lost in the dark.