Temporary Hiatus - Please Read.

 

 

 

 

 

So I feel really bad to announce that, but I took a decision lately. I've been working really hard and I feel like nothing will ever be enough so I think it is about time I take some well--deserved time out of AFF. At first, it was just because I had a really bad month in my real life in general. I talked to you guys about that job that I hated so much, well I quit. 

 

I couldn't handle it anymore so I decided I preferred to be broke but happy than wealthy ( well, for as far as it goes) and on the edge of being depressed. So there's that. 

 

Also, I know I've talked about it and you guys were awesome at cheering me up, but I honestly feel the pressure of ' performing' . By wanting to make you guys happy, most of the time, I end up facing consequences I didn't expect. I could give you endless exemples, but the most logical one to give would be the fact that I know you are expecting things from me. I am not especially talented but I know some are waiting for some requests in particular and I feel like what I write is never good enough. You would be surprised about how many stories I wrote (sometimes over 6 000 words and more.) and that I deleted because I feel like it won't work. I have plenty of ideas ( around 27 for one shots at the moment we are speaking ) but I am blocked by this fear of bad reactions that is slowly growing on me. Another exemple would be the giveaway. I really want to do it with all my heart because I love you guys and I want to give back some of the love I've received but I've been brought down by my own idea somehow. I asked you to comment a short review, telling me things I should work on, what you liked and what you disliked. Some of you did awesome and constructive comments, making me smile and learn about my own writing style along the way, but others were kind of attacking. I mean, some comments were obvious and I even wondered why they were sent. I don't want to point anyone, but sure a one shot is a bit rushed ( I got that one a lot) and, of course, this is a bit dramatic. I mean, that's a fanfic, so it makes sense, right? 

 

I think I can speak in the name of most of the writers here on the site when I say that some comments are not necessary. If we learn from some of them, others are just plain destructive. I have yet to learn how to take them maturely. I won't lie, I am someone who's particularly easy on the trigger and I tend not to take the critic really well. However, I worked really hard on that lately, even though I was particularly hurt by some words. 

I do not think this is how it should work. I should not be stressed to write since it started out as a passion. That's why I want to take sometimes off, to cool down my head from everything that happened. 

The hiatus will depend on how I feel. Maybe a week, two , a whole month or more ,who knows. I will continue to work on some projects. You may still see me update, but only the stories I do as a collaboration, since I do not want my friends and colleagues to have to deal with the consequences of my decisions. I will work on my things on my side, without pressure, in hope to bring you guys better stories than the crap I've been giving you lately, as soon as possible. 

 

The giveaway is still going on, although. If you want to participate, feel free to join. 

Also, before I leave, please take note that the Luhan oneshot requested had been updated. It is now complete. You can read it here.

 

I love you guys and I hope you will forgive me. I am just really tired of all this. 

 

 

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bblamkaq #1
Take your time and back with the cheerful self, ok… fighting…
gurewulf #2
I hope you feel better during your hiatus! Please don't take bad comments personally, the only opinion that matters is yours, it's YOUR story, not theirs, if they want the story to have a completely different plot, then they should make one. But really author-nim, I hope you get stronger and life gets better, "it's a bad day,not a bad life" :)
EllieKat #3
Good luck with your hiatus! Hope you return stronger than before.

As an author, I understand what you mean. I love constructive criticism bc I honestly /do/ want to get better at writing, but sometimes I'm just writing a self-indulgent fic that I could care less about being perfect. In that case, I just point it out that "yep, I wrote this to get past my writer's block."

But plain rude comments do nothing for authors. Also I've seen people leaving rude comments on authors wrote in like 2013. Um, hello? It's 2016. Surely that writer has improved by now, so why not go look at a more recent fic of theirs first????

Anyway, take all the time you need and I'm sure your readers will be patiently waiting and support you along the way.
NAMJOONIEKIM #4
Just to let you know, when you're ready we'll also be ready. Take your time and think positively.
"Life is tough, but darling, so are you." - Stephanie Bennett-Henry
ExoticStarlightARMY #5
If going on hiatus is what it take for you to recuperate then I support you 100%. A lot of authors who recive bad flac from their readers tend to just quite all together and it makes me so sad. I feel like especially on aff, or any fanfic website, the majority of bad feed back is probably young readers or maniacs that have poor word choices. I personally don't like doing requests because writing is something that i do for myself and I have a hard time writing something for strangers. Plus I just don't have enough freetime to get everything down in a timely fashion. I really admire that you are able to do that and create such wonderful stories. Hope you get to feeling better and can find a career/job that makes you happy. Being poor sounds great, but having money to survive is important too.
Caniwi #6
I think it's time you take a break too, you deserve it after so much. To be honest, I think most of the readers are content just by their favorite authors updating. I know I'm that way at least, and I hate it when authors feel pressured to write because of some ungrateful readers that just want and want but don't give back anything in return. As for the comments, that must . Some people just use the chances the author gives to receive constructive criticism as a way to post their rude and mean comments.
Writing should be something one enjoys doing, so if you actually feel pressured to do it, it's time to have a rest. Take care and I hope you can feel better after the rest. Have a good day! ヽ(*＾ω＾*)ﾉ
LoveK-POPforlife #7
As your friend, I don't want you to feel pressured and or feel that you owe us something. You should right the story because you want to. As a reader I understand the want to have a update from the author. But I would much rather have it be done when you feel that you can update. I know how it feels. I have my own stories that aren't popular, and I don't update them really. Take the time you need.
superdupper #8
:( don't pressure yourself author nim . it's not good stressing yourself. Take a time to relax don't thing what the bad comment . you are talented author you shouldn't feel down. Take a hiatus to relax your mind. Fighting . I will cheering for you.
Abbynics #9
I hope you will find a way back to writing as your passion! Don't be stress about it, your stories are great! take a good rest and come back to us soon! :) And I hope you will be able to get a job you'll like and be happy with :)
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