Ok... Ok... Take a deep breath.

Today I have finally decided that I'm going to come out to my mum about my gender identity and uality. I decided to make this decision, because I'm feeling very emotionally unstable. I started self harming again a couple days ago and last night I had an episode where I felt so disgusted with my body that I was actually crying for 2 hours. Even this morning after my parents left for work I broke down again in tears.

I'm so emotionally unstable that I need to come out to at least my mum today in order for me to feel some kind of relief. It wont be long until my mum returns homes, mostly likely in the next half an hour she'll be back and that's when I plan to tell her. I'm nervous and scared, I have no idea what her reaction is going to be like, but I just need to tell her. I can't keep living on with these secrets. I also can't keep letting my mum create these false expectations of me as a girl which will never come true.