I'm not even sure if I should post it here because I don't know what is the purpose of blog in this site but anyway.... If you're subsribing to my stories then you'd notice that I haven't posted an update in a while. Usually it only takes me like a month to write a long chapter but lately I feel like I don't want to do anything. And I'm about to tell you why

I dated this guy for a while (like 2 months), I know some of you might say "What? 2 months?" well yeah, I was seeing him for two months and it was good. He was not my boyfriend, he never asked me to be his girlfriend or anything but he acted like we were onto something. Let me tell you a little more about him, he's older than me, he's attractive, very tall, basically everything I've ever wanted in a guy. And of course, I was stupid enough to fall for him even though I didn't know where the relationship was going. All I'm going to tell you is we had our fun together. 

And last week, I found out he was lying to me. Not just once. Basically everything he ever told me were all lies and I believed him. I was soooo upset, angry, and heartbroken, I didn't even know what to do so I went to a hair salon, and cut my hair short. Don't ask me why I did that. I was furious. How could he do that to me when he knew very well I believe him? How could someone be that cruel? Deceiving me and made me believe he was a single man when he is not. It was so disgusting and I felt so dirty. 

And he got the nerve to tell me I should travel more because I told him I have nothing to do until September because college doesn't start until then. He travels a lot because of his job and he made me feel bad about staying at home all the time. I was thinking, "Well, he's right, maybe I should go out more." but now I see things clearly, I'm all like " him, he can't tell me how to live my life." He doesn't know half of the things I went through, he doesn't know what I like to do when I feel drained or when I feel tired, or even the things that I do to cheer myself up. It hurts when the one you really care about doesn't know much about you, but it hurts so much more when you know they don't even care or try to get to know you.

I'm going to be honest, I'm not over him yet. I still miss him a lot but I accept the fact that this relationship is over and there is nothing I can do about it. I have to move on and I'm still trying to feel fine again. So if you're waiting for my story, please wait. I will update them when I feel better.

I don't know if there's anyone who cares enough to read this blog post, but I really do hope you will not go through the same thing as I do right now because it's terrible and it makes you feel like . But if you do, then, you're going to survive this and you will meet someone one day that will treat you well but you have to take your time fixing yourself. I always listen to this song by Miley Cyrus(back from 2010 or 2011) called 'See You In Another Life' whenever I just got out of a relationship, because there is this one line that says "I don't know where I'm going, but when you turn around, I'll be gone and that means goodbye." I don't know - I just really like it because it's true. After a break up, you aren't so sure what are you going to do or where you're going but after some time, you will not be in the same place again. And after your boyfriend or girlfriend wonders what happened to you, you are no longer there.

Wow that was a long post, sorry it's boring. I just have to put my feelings out somewhere...