I may not be a good EXO fan.

Sometimes I'm not supportive of what they choose and what they decided.

Like when it's revealed Yi Fan aka Kris would be leaving EXO. I can't put myself on his shoes and tried to feel how he felt. I thought he's selfish and things like that. I was even more angry when I found out Baekhyun is dating Taeyeon. I told myself this is just a rumor, but when I saw how SM has confirmed it, I started cursing worse than I usually did. I was really angry why did he decide to start dating. I'm a ChanBaek shipper and I know it affects how I thought. Then one hitted me really bad; Luhan leaving. Xi Luhan, that deer that could only eat baozi and drink bubble tea, is my ultimate bias, and he would always be. At first I thought it's okay... I still have Chanyeol, Baekhyun, Jongdae, Minseok, Junmyeon, Yixing, Zitao, Kyungsoo, Jongin, and Sehun. But then I decided EXO would never be the same without Luhan. I thought about forgetting EXO, and stuffs like that. At the beginning of this year, the Sehun and Miranda Kerr stuffs happened. It broke my heart, thinking our maknae could be dating a woman around nine years older than him. I thought how I think is correct; I should be protective. But I'm wrong. I realized;

Being an EXO-L doesn't mean always about loving. We are supposed to support each other

And I failed that principle. I was thinking too much. I was hoping to much. I was hoping Luhan would come back to EXO. I don't care about his sickness, his insomnia, his exhaustation, and his feelings. I just want him there. But now I know I am being really selfish and unsupportive, not like how we EXO-L are supposed to be.

I suppose I've not been a good fan, not supportive and not loving. Especially when Xing Zhaolin is rumored to be the one to replace Yi Fan. I was furious. EXO is never going to be same without Yi Fan and Lu Han.

To all EXO-Ls out there, please support EXO no matter what they choose to be. EXO will always be EXO, even if in the end EXO would only consist of two members.

We should be like the Cassies. They could stand strong even though TVXQ has only two members now. We should prove to the world EXO isn't overrated, it's true EXO is worth to be fought for.

EXO isn't only a band. EXO is a family. Together with us, EXO-L, WE ARE ONE.