To the fake mother ers who can't learn how to say something nice; even to your own friend--- fix yourselves. 

It's honestly ridiculous. I have, or HAD, a friend who always acted like she knew everything about me. And she was right at the most part. We were super close and we were pretty much the same type of person. BUT, even though this girl is an amazing person to be with; she changes to this snobby obnoxious person when with people she's not very close with. I'm sure it's because she wants to stand out and not be alone anyway (which is a problem we both have) but okay.. when I'm going to go out with my long time crush which we have LOTS of history with and which you KNOW about; why couldn't you catch on that it's probably best not to squeeze in. 

Here's the short version of the day that happened:

1. I'm an outgoing introvert: I love being with people but I get cranky if I don't get some alone time. So I already slept over her house a couple days so my energy is drained and I get irritated. So I needed to be away from the girl so I can calm myself down.

2. I'm claustrophobic; we go to karaoke with the guy I liked and his friend. This is grinding all up on me when I already said stop like 5 times. One or two times? fine. But after the FIFTH time, you would think she got my vibe (especially since "she knows me so well")

3. This girl had a boyfriend at the time (broken up recently), but she was ALL OVER the guy i liked. i'm like wtf.. 

4. I actually hate fake people. But she kept acting so ing fake in front of the guys. She also kept saying the three of us were terrible singers but she can rap "amazingly". (bull). 

5. She keeps grabbing at my mic and taking it away from me. Like EIGHT times. Is it so wrong to want to sing the song I picked out? It's called sharing. It's also just plain disrespectful to snatch someone's mic while they're singing. It's just common sense. You learn this in kindergarden. 

6. The original plan was that she was going to take the friend home and I'll drive the guy home. I wanted it so we can have some alone time. BUUT no. this girl all of a sudden shouts outloud that it's a great idea if I were just to go home myself and she would drive both guys home. And she KEPT on going at it when i was like "... okay fine. whatever". 

7. While we were in her car, i text her that she has no "nun-chi" which is like being able to catch on to things really quickly. I also said that I wanted to take the guy home to spend some time with him. Then this freaker finally saw the text when we got to my house, and she literally shouted out the window "OH MY GOSH, I JUST GOT YOUR TEXT! I FEEL SO BAD" and obviously would bring attention from the two guys. I was like "its okay, no big" but she kept making a scene. 

Like , you did so many things to piss me off and you give ME attitude? 

We hung out a few days later after she apologized again through texts. I'm the type of person who kinda gets over easily so by the time when she asked me if I wanted to go out to eat with her, I was over what happened that day. I told her I didn't have money though, so she said she would pay for me. I was with two other friends because we were going to work on our essays together and so after eating, the "friend" asked us if she can come over too. Before me or my other friend could say anything, one shouted yes in excitement. Let me just stop myself here, I am not a great person to have when doing homework at home. "Wendy" my more sensitive friend told me later on that she didn't want "Maya" (the girl i've been talking about) to come over because she's even more distracting. "Nancy" the girl who shouted yes, quickly called her and said never mind. 

Fast forward two days later. Maya sends me a looong text saying that she felt used (she thought I used her to get something to eat even though I was still "mad" at her). I tried to tell her that I was completely over what happened that day and I could give back her money if she wanted. She kept on going at me and I tried my ing best to be calm... until she said "I'm thinking whether or not to keep you as a friend." 

Okay what the actual . I got so pissed (she said some other stuff) and I curse her out. This hasn't seen me truly angry before so she doesn't know how I can get. I will ing wreck her. She always says that she can knock a out if they mess with her and all this stupid , when for real, she can't do . This whole "tough side" is a way for her to conceal that insecure side. Who is she trying to fool. 

So anyway, after 30 minutes, she apologizes and I just get myself to calm down. Even though we talk normally on text, we haven't seen each other in about a month. So anyway, she texts me this afternoon, about an envelope I left at her house a loong time ago. I tell her it's fine and to throw it away and we start talking normally. At this point, I'm so depressed (for multiple of reasons)  and I ask her if she would like to hang out. (This is after a couple of sentences.)

Her: Because I'm personally upset about something and I feel like if i see you then I'll murder you o_o for your safety 

(HA don't make me ing laugh, assbunch.)

Me: Um.. okay? Did I do something? If I did, sorry..?

Her: Yes, in my opinion, but i am also at fault so it's not completely on you.

Me:Then don't you want to just try to fix it rather than keep it bottled up?

Her: I can't

Me: Actually you know what. I'm not emotionally stable for this so whatever. (I didn't see her i can't text but after seeing it): Yeah, okay. I'm gonna go. Bye. 

Her: I'm not comforting you because I can see your depression is bad at the moment. I just want to stay neutral. I know that I do on impluse so if i say one thing then it will sound really mean. 

Me: Yeah I get it (whatever) It's fine. 

Honestly, i'm so done with your ed up fake personality. You may make excuses for everything because of your "disorders" and such, but honey, you're not the only one with disorders. I have them as well and at least your family let you find some sort of comfort through therapy and medication. My family makes me just bottle up because they don't want to spend the money. You know that you were the one of the only people that I can talk to. But no. Because everything is about you, you always cut me off to talk about the same problem that happened YEARS ago (and those problems aren't even that bad.) You got bullied? So did everyone else at school. You had a bad relationship with your brother when you were kids? Try to fix it now; he's trying to. Stop acting like you're the only one who's got it bad. Be sad, be angry; that's your emotions and I'm not telling you you can't. But know that those things aren't a free pass for everything in life. 

The reason why I'm so ing pissed is that, as cocky it may sound, if it weren't for me, the people you hang out with wouldn't hang out with you. I drilled your into our prom group even though nobody wanted you. I got people to finally get over their awkwardness with you and made them hang out with you again. ing be grateful you're not a loner anymore. 

Don't ing start with me . 

I swear, I'll ing beat your if I see you again. I can't stand your anymore. you.