The school nurse had given me a medicine for fever. I feel dizzy right now and I don’t want to stay here in the clinic, the air condition makes me more sick.

I’ll just go back to our room. It’s P.E. class, and I am thankful that I have reason not to attend this class. I don’t want to cause any ruckus again. She’s not talking to me anymore, and she might recent me if something bothersome will happen again.

Yeah, from now on I’ll be good, even it really feels like killing me.

I am alone here at the classroom; they are all out for the P.E. class, this moment of silence is not familiar anymore, I miss her.

When will I be able to talk to her again? Well, I’ll just lean at my table and sleep. Before I could have my deep sleep, I hear a sound from the door. There's someone who came inside the room, and it’s her. She came directly beside my chair were she usually sits.

Youngji is sitting in her chair while arranging her things on her bag. I feel awkward sitting beside her; even I’m just pretending to be asleep it feels so weird being with her. I wonder how I can get out here without her noticing. Maybe I’ll just pretend sleeping until she goes out of here.

Anyway, why is she here? She should be attending the P.E. class.

Finally, she stands up; time for me to breathe comfortably… but… hey, she’s really unpredictable, I was shock when her hand landed on my forehead. I am sweating (the effect of the medicine I have taken). She takes a deep sigh and rubs a hanky on my sweating face. She takes her sit again, silently. Why is she doing this? Is she taking care of me? She’s worrying right? I guess she came back here because she’s worried, oh really… my feels, dreaming again.

Ah chincha, I can’t take this anymore my arms are now numb, I give up. After a while I pretend to woke up; I stretch my arms and take a yawn… I slightly take a gaze on her. She’s leaning on here table, is she sleeping?hmmmmmmm…

Nah… it feels so good looking at her, I miss her so much we never talk for about 3 days now. For those 3 days, awkward silence between us can explain everything. It feels like hell, I want to voice out my side on her, but I guess she won’t bother to listen. She looks like an angel; I wish I can stay like this forever. *long sigh*

I must get out of here before she woke up. I stood up and walk to the door, when a voice of her call my name.

“Jackson…”

My heart skips a beat and my body froze upon hearing her voice.

After a few seconds, I manage to answer her.

“Nae?” I said and turned slightly enough to see her reflection.

“Jackson-ah” she repeated. I turn to face her.

“Jackson-ah… I-I’m sorry….. Are you still angry at me?”

I was taken aback after hearing her say those words and asking that question that I myself should ask. I have done something wrong, and she knows it. That night… I punch her beloved Mino. Good for him, I can sense that he will never do good and his not worthy for her.

0_0’ aish… nae! I’m jealous, >_<

but the thing is, I punch him in front of her. That night, I saw her glaring eyes she was so angry at me. This moment, I turn around to meet her eyes searching for any hesitant look from her. I saw her eyes, sincere, waiting for my answer.

“No, why would i?”

I have no strength to hate her, she’s just too innocent to hate for. My heart, my mind and my whole being wouldn’t take to hate her.

“Because… I slapped you, and I’m sorry”

her gaze was just so sincere and innocent and it’s melting me.

“Oh, I’m fine. No need to worry.”

I turn my back and about to go, when she asks something.

“But, why? Why did you do that?”

I was not able to answer her directly. I don’t know what to say, my mind keeps on telling ‘just tell her what you feel and she’ll understand you’. But I don’t want to risk our friendship for this stupid feeling. I can feel that she’s walking behind me and I know she wants to hear the reasons behind those actions. I feel her hand on my arm.

“Jackson.” ah this girl, you’re making it hard for me. I take a deep breath

“Youngji… just forget it, you don’t have to know.”

"oh...waeyo?" she ask.

i answered. "I mean... its better for you not to know."

she asked again. "Wae???"

I have to go; I don’t want to stay here anymore. I might not be able to control myself. I take her hand off my arm and about to open the door when she suddenly hug me at my back.

I froze, and I don’t know what to do. My heart beat became more faster and I might forget how to breath. I don’t want to end this; I want her so badly… I want her to know how I feel.

“Youngji” I’m about to spill out everything my heart wants to say even before.

“Don’t! Just…don’t mind to answer me, I don’t want to hear it anymore; I don’t want to lose you. You’re the most precious friend I have.”

I don’t know why, but I feel sad after hearing her say that word ‘FRIEND’ I feel stupid, to think on confessing to her. I release a painful smile and just say

“Yah… Youngji- yah I won’t go anywhere. No matter what happen I will stay with you… and…”

It hurts to say this; it’s really heavy on my heart. I just close my eyes cause a tear were about to fall from my eyes.

“…be your friend.”

I have to close my eyes and hide every pain I’m feeling while saying it to her. I hear a sigh of relief from her.

“Thank you. Jackson-ah” she tighten her hug on my back.

“I missed you” I feel happy hearing these words from her.

I missed her too.

I loosen her arms and face her. I gave her a pout face and smile while looking in her eyes. She laughed and smiles back. I hug her deeply

“I missed you too.”

I wish this moment would never end, having her in my arms and reuniting again with her. She suddenly pulls herself from hugging me and became the usual Youngji I know.

“Yah! You missed me? You don’t even bother to talk to me, I hate you! I’m so sad for the past days for not talking to my bestfriend. If you really missed me you’d have to initiate first.”

She punches my shoulder and release a smirk.

“Aish, that hurts!... yah! I planned to talk to you, but you did it already.”

While receiving her every yell and spank I smile and laugh in front of her

“Yah, Heo Youngji! hajima, chincharoooo….”

"HMMM... serves you right." :P

I guess this will always be my role in her life, her so called .....................‘bestfriend’